My step children are here this weekend and now that their dad and I have split up i'm finding it very hard to be involved. The reality is he is deliberately not involving me and excluding me whilst constantly saying in front of them 'we would all like you to join us'.
I have a 6 month old baby who is not well today so haven't been able to go anywhere. I don't have any family to escape to either.
He doesn't usually cook or anything but whenever they are here he controls everything. He cooks, cleans, decides what everyone is doing and again allows me to be involved if i want. He sends his children to the shop if something has run out even though I am here and it is usually my money he is using. I know this doesn't sound bad but they all act like i'm a nutcase because of how he treats me.
There is no role for me anymore and I hate it. It's only like this when they are here, usually he is a little more respectful. I've told him many times how I feel but he sees it differently so end of conversation. We obviously have the baby together and a 4 yr old too and when his children are here he does whatever he likes with our son as well. He lets him eat far too much rubbish, behave really badly and then shouts at him when he goes too far. Of course he is going to push the boundaries, they've disappeared!!!
I know i'm not meant to feel this way but I don't like being around my ss. It's not just me who feels like it so its not an evil step mother thing. None of his family can cope with him. I just feel so let down by all of his dad's family. The rest of them are getting together today but we are never invited because of ss behaviour. They can't cope with him, fair enough, but nor can I!! and he's not mine!! and I need a break!!
I know I took him on part time when I got together with his dad but I didn't know he would be like this or that his mum and dad would bury their heads for so many years about it and not get any help. I didn't know I would be the only one trying to parent him properly and have boundaries. I do know that I can't do it anymore though. I don't like not liking a child, I feel very guilty but it is so hard to find things to like today!
I'm struggling with depression at the moment and was really not looking forward to this weekend. I just want to leave.
I can't wait for spring and summer when I can escape to the park easily.
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NHAN · 18/02/2012 16:46
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