Hello all out there
Just had horrible evening with DSD. Cut long story short - she is 10, resents my presence, feels threatened in her relationship with her Dad because of me and our (me and DH's) baby daughter etc.
I have been with DH for over 5 years and it has never been easy - he over indulges her and treats her like a princess which gets on my wick but I have learned to get on with it. Generally we tick along ok but in the last few months DSD has become more and more hostile towards me and at times is so unbelievably rude to me I can hardly believe it! My DH tries his best but is rubbish at actually santioning her behaviour - lots of "darling don't be rude to Tooting Bec" etc etc when really she needs a good (metaphorical!) slap...........
Anyway, this evening it all blew up (over nothing) and DSD flew into one of her rages and it all got very emotional. Normally I just let it ride out but suddenly this evening I felt like shit - she kept saying over and over again how much she hated me and how nice her stepdad is.
I feel awful because to be honest I have tried to build a relationship with her but if I am totally honest I don't love her, and most of the time I don't even like her - what if she has picked up on this (despite the fact that I think I hide it!)?
My DH says that it is down to me to build the relationship (which I agree with and have done lots in the past to do this) but they have such an intense relationship that I feel like a third wheel and unfortunately it is a vicious circle - the ruder she is to me, the less I like her and want to spend time with her. I know rationally that she would react like this whoever was with her precious Dad but can't help feeling I have been completely crap as a step parent.
And then I think she is only a child and I should be an adult but I find it so fricken difficult!!
Sorry this is just a rant but I honestly worry that the difficult relationship we have could be the start of the end of my relationship with DH. I can't see a way through this at the moment - I can't be honest with DH about how I feel because who wants to hear "you know what, if I never saw your daughter again I wouldn't be sad?"
Has anyone tried family counselling and was it helpful?
BTW, Ex partner no problem (minor niggles but nothing that affects me) and DSD has happy home life, wants for nothing emotionally or materially.
Thanks in advance for any advice!
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Tootingbec · 23/09/2010 19:52
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