Just a bit of support needed I think. Tough day and my DP isn't interested in talking.
I feel up and down all of the time when his kids come to stay. I try very hard to make my DP and his kids happy, sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't but I know thats how it goes! I've slowly come to realise that any negative feelings are all my own doing and it's really affecting me.
His exW used to be a cow towards me but has strangely mellowed in the last couple of months. Chatting when we pick up kids, even texting me rather than DP to see how the kids are or to arrange things. So I'm lucky I guess that I don't have an evil exW to deal with. Having said that, she's a total bitch to DP in mediation sessions; they're divorced but still doing financial sorting out. My DP and I are on a debt management plan as we're struggling, she has 2 holidays a year, has enough money off DP every month as well as being married to a well off man - but I guess the ex will always try and get what she can from her ex husband no matter how better off she is than us, and she knows it.
Anyway, back to the point. I just want to be happy with my DP and happy when the kids come. Sometimes I am but I'm so up and down that I hate myself for it. Everytime they shout 'Daddy' even though I'm right there I take it as a personal slur. When they won't eat my food I get offended. When DP spends ages tucking them in and I'm only alowed a quick goodnight and a kiss on the forehead I feel left out. I feel left out when he sends me to the shop as I feel he just wants me out of the house so he can be alone with them. I do give him time alone but I feel like I should be allowed that too. The relationship I have with them is also important as they spend time living here in OUR house, not my DP's. I can't seem to relax about it. We've been together for 2 years and I'm getting more uptight about it. We've talked about marriage and kids but then I start on the'well I suppose it doesn't matter as much to you. you've already been married/honeymoon/kids so it won't be as important to you' I think I'm right about that, but he doesn't.
Somebody please sort me out. I know I need to just relax but I need a shove in the right direction please.
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steppingup · 25/07/2010 18:26
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