I'd love to swim, but have no time. Running not good (hate it and have dodgy lower back).
giddy- you always help! Thanks for all the hugs- chonky too. Wine I've cut back on recently (perhaps the reason for it all going wrong!)
My parents are very helpful. Especially my mother who I absolutely rely on. They've been away recently and the week was a nightmare- seriously. Fetching ds2 from school is a major headache without my parents around. Did remind me how lucky I am to have them. My Mum was then taken ill this week and ended up in A&E which probably added to the everything. Plus of course ds1's tutor dying. Which I feel terribly self indulgent about feeling knocked sideways by because god only knows how her parents are feeling. I have just sat down and written to them. Such a terrible waste.
I think I have one eye on the future, partly because of summer hols coming up (sinking feeling) and partly because that reminds me just how unmanageable I;m finding ds1 out and about. He's lovely at home, but feral outside. We attended a special SN day today which I had high hopes for and he was out of control. The only one of course! It does worry me generally about the future as well. I find it very difficult to manage him outside now, my mum has said she is beginning to struggle (he gave her a fright a few weeks ago, got out of her hand and was trying to get into an RAC van, she grabbed him by his jacket thing - he was heading for the road- and the zip left a mark on his neck). It makes me worry terribly about the future- just what does happpen when you can't manage? He's only 8 fgs.
Loads and loads of work and genernal admin. I am in such trouble with SS for not completing DP returns. I find the paperwork of dps impossible, can't do it when the kids are around as they run off with stuff but have 1001 other things to do when they're in bed. childfree time eaten up by other stuff at the moment (motability to sort out etc). Suddenly we're desperately short of money (like everyone I know); we seem to have suddenly run out completely and I need a proper paid job. I think its actually this that is the final straw tbh. Very difficult to be employable when you are tied to school bus times though. I'm getting odd bits of work from home and have an interview coming up etc so it will get sorted, but I think I'm going to feel ill until it does.
Last session with K on Monday Sphil- suspect I may end on a downer!
We are actually going away next weekend to Oxford. College Reunion. At the moment I feel like I don't want to go as I have no idea how we're going to pay for it! And an evening of being surrounded by terribly successful people, whose lives will be so far removed from ours...... I suspect I'll just drink a lot.
Thank you everyone- I know I haven't mentioned everyone by name, but I have read all your posts and thought about ways to incorporate your survival strategies......