Had enough of Holland, can I please go to Italy now? (moan, -warning)

[saintmaybe]

Sorry, this is a pointless moan, just need to do it so I don't wear out any welcome I've got left in rl.

So ds2's class had a trip to soft play place this morning, but he hasn't been on any trips at all this term because he's really anxious about the noise other children might make generally, and has been pretty aggressive; to the extent that the school (special, and he's in asd unit) have asked me to refer him to CAMHS as they're not able to deal.

Persuaded him to go on the trip if I took him there by car instead, which I was fine to do because I'd so like him to have some fun times with school rather than so much sadness ,though it is one of the only times I have to get anything done as it's one of the 2 mornings dd's in nursery.

When we got there he saw the minibus arriving with the other children, freaked out and refused to get out of the car, so after half an hour I drove back the 10 miles to school, him more upset than ever, me crying; god knows why it's the stupid little things that suddenly get me down rather than the big issues, and all I could keep thinking was I've had enough now.

So stupid, don't know why this really upset me, I think if I could have got him in he'd have had a lovely time, but he's too big and strong now. This is going to go on forever, isn't it?

[saintmaybe]

Sorry realised Holland/italy ref is prob too obscure; not thinking very straight! Never mind I prob needed to write it down more than have replies anyway!

[Twiglett]

No, not oblique .. even I got the reference

sorry you're having a hard time though

[saintmaybe]

Thanks. Will of course be fine. Dp's been working away during the week for the last month and I'm knackered, but he finishes this week. I'm fully expecting him to come home and put everything right

[RTKangaSANTAMummy]

I got the reference to the poem too - I know some people don't like it but I used it to desribe DS to people who don't understand

Sorry you had such a hard time today, I don't really have any advice just wanted to let you know that I had read your message

[COPPERfeelunderSantasTOP]

Sorry you've had such a bad day.

[anniebear]

Oh that sounds so upsetting for you

I would have been (and have been) in tears also

[saintmaybe]

Thanks guys. Just got them all into bed and ready to take a deep breath and have a cup of tea. The CAMHS thing is a pig; Ive not long done dla, and the thought of having to make another list of 'why he's so awful' , when he's NOT, just to get some help is so depressing. I know they have to allocate resources but it always seems such a battle. And probably silly, but the stuff that's been in the press about nhs records not necessarily being confidential anymore, and with talk of locking up people with mental health problems who haven't done anything makes me nervous about what's going to be on his record. But tomorrow is another day, maybe it'll be sunny and my new crap haircut will have miraculously grown out.