Things here have been steady - nothing critical (thank God) but not much relief, either.
Neuropsych assessment for Bee - 3 weeks and it is finally wrapped up (I think)
Metabolic genetics reassessment - nothing major, but always a reminder of how much she has going on
Heat - it went over 38*C yesterday - Bee can't regulate her body temperature, so, while she can play outside briefly wearing a cooling vest, it still really takes its toll on her. I need to buy new inserts for her cooling vest but can't afford them.
Finances - DH is still out of work. I am doing my best to run a small business out of my home (I make bibs, incontinence pads, SN sized cloth nappies and weighted blankets) but I am spreading myself thin and feeling it. To top it off, my sewing machine packed in last week, so I had to get a new one. Mixed blessing - I am upgrading
XH is a jerk - he has never paid one red cent for my son's care, and is not even willing to foot the bill for DS to visit him even once a month now. XH's new wife is psycho - literally. She has been claiming to have one potentially fatal illness after another - first (4 or so years ago) she needed a bone marrow transplant because of aplastic anemia, then that went away, then it was "brain cancer" and then "3 types of bone cancer" and she has had "8 months to live" for more than 2 years now. They keep telling DS these things with the admonition that he is not to tell anyone. Of course, he tells me right away, but it bothers me that he knows that his father and stepmother are both pathological liars (a huge portion of why I left him). Because DS is 14 now, the choice to continue a relationship with his father is his. My gut says it won't be for much longer.
School - we are working toward beginning transition to a community school for Bee. Again, I need to see this as a positive, but there is also a lot of uncertainty - and I'll admit, I am not fond of question marks.
But here is the kicker... Bee is having some significant blood clotting issues. She is covered in hundreds of bruises, and honestly looks like she is being tossed around. I know that there is no concern that she is being mistreated (her bloodwork reflects the bruising - her clotting numbers are very elevated but aside from even more of the meds and blood products she is already getting, there isn't much that can be done). Her PT seems to think that she will magically be "fine" if she is in her splints more often, but she is only seeing her at school, where she spends her day in her wheelchair or a task chair. Bee was up on her feet for an hour at her baseball game on Saturday, and she is bruised and blistered from the splints so badly now it looks like we have been using her for target practice. She has bruises on her arms, legs, torso, back, buttocks, she even has a bruise that traces the exact path of her port-a-cath under the skin. The bruises don't hurt her, but to see her like this (and know it is tied directly to her physical deterioration) is doing a number on me.
Sorry for the moaning and complaining - it is just a tough stretch on me. I know it'll pass - it always does, but for now, I just want to hide.
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