My EBF 5 month old DS is going through what I am guessing is the 4 month sleep regression where he has started waking every 3 hours again through the night.
I can cope with the feedings if it was just that, but my problem is that I am such a light sleeper, and take ages to get to sleep, and to get back to sleep once woken, that I'm now getting into this viscious cycle of worrying about not sleeping, then lying there for hours awake whilst DS is asleep...by 5am I'm a total wreck.
DH is very good sharing the nights but he's unable to at present as he's away. Last night when DS woke at midnight, I spent a while trying to settle him in his crib but when it didn't work, I picked him up and was not gentle with him. I didn't hurt him or anything like that but I just picked him up abruptly and carried him quickly to my bed where I plonked him down as he needed changing. It felt like there was no love in my actions and I feel terrible.
Later in the night when he wouldn't settle, I was lying down trying to cuddle him and nothing was working, I abruptly released myself from him and then bit my hand in pure frustration. I know he sensed this and was very upset.
I then lay awake sobbing for another hour as felt completely bereft at what I'd done. I know I would never hurt him but what kind of mother am I to be less than gentle to an innocent baby.
Please tell me someone else out there a) shares this insomnia problem and/or b) can relate to these feelings of intense frustration/anger and has done similar ie been more abrupt with baby than should have been? Just feeling terrible :-(
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catlike1979 · 23/06/2016 13:29
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