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Did your parents have weird ideas about sex (and has it affected you?)?

(44 Posts)
ChipOffTheOld Sat 27-Jul-13 23:40:10

Have NCed for embarrassing question!

My mother thought that sex was an unpleasant, dirty kind of act which women had to perform frequently (to the desired standard) if they wanted to keep their man. She thought men were slightly stupid, easily fooled and only interested in one thing.

I was quite proud of myself for not having inherited this line of thought, but as I grow older I keep discovering ways that her warped views have, in fact, affected me. sad I was wondering if anyone else feels like me - that your parents' odd hang ups have come back to bite you on the bum? And has anyone managed to overcome them?

Andro Sun 28-Jul-13 00:06:53

The only (in today's society) vaguely unusual idea was that sex outside of marriage was inappropriate and would not be tolerated in their house - not a surprise with 2 fairly strict Catholics. There have been no long term effects.

PosyNarker Sun 28-Jul-13 00:15:37

Yes - similar to your mother and although it wasn't malignant (they were / are happy) a female with her own desires was not rec

QueenofWhispers Sun 28-Jul-13 00:31:52

yes!

my grandmother made sex sound like rape; she equated the feeling to having her skin peeled off.

the idea of sex would give me anxiety to the extent that I would scratch my forearms raw when someone flirted with me in highschool/university.

and then one day I fell in love with a very patient and gentle man whose family had also scared him from sex (religious reasons).

when we finally did dtd (after we were married) it was amazing and we both wish we had started the day we met.

RhondaJean Sun 28-Jul-13 00:53:25

Yes to the point the only two bits if advice my mother gave me about sex were " I'd rather have a cup of tea" and " men get selfish make him wear something".

I didn't - still don't - know how to reconcile that I like to fuck with my religious upbringing. I do t know how to talk to dds about it eurher.

LegoCaltrops Sun 28-Jul-13 00:54:37

I didn't realise how you got pregnant until I was 17. I'd missed some school due to illness, so I don't know if I missed 'the lesson' or if there was even one, but no-one ever told me properly. This made it quite difficult to explain on one occasion, why I thought I might be pregnant (I had let a boy kiss me & we were alone in his bedroom) & when I fearfully told my mum more or less that sentence, instead of asking me what had actually happened, she assumed the worst & appeared with a MAP. I spent the next 24 hours vomiting & she spent them saying it was my own fault for behaving like a slut. I was only 14 & had no idea what I'd done.

I suspect this probably had some bearing on my anxiety around sex, I'm in my 30's now. I also never really opened up to my mum much after that. I never told her why though as it was just too hurtful.

cooeeyonlyme Sun 28-Jul-13 01:01:12

My mum was sexual abused as a child so growing up we were told that sex was wrong.
Horrible really.

FlatsInDagenham Sun 28-Jul-13 01:07:48

My parents had a very good sex life and were quite open about it. I can remember a book hanging around the house in full view of all of us (I must have been about 13 or so and I was the youngest child) called something like "How to make love to the same person for the rest of your life and still love it." At the time I felt quite embarrased about it when my friends came round and it was just sitting there on the coffee table, so I asked my mum to put it away! She seemed really surprised!

But the long term effects have been positive. I now have fulfilling enjoyable sex with my partner of 21 years - indeed it gets better the longer we're together I'd say.

oracleselfservice Sun 28-Jul-13 06:06:29

My mother PRETENDED for whatever reason known only to herself to be extremely prissy and victorian. Her favourite line was "I'm not your friend I'm your mother". Example - when I told her my friend had lost her virginity to her boyfriend when we were 16 she said "no other men will want her now because she will get a reputation". As a result I told her nothing, asked her nothing and ended up pregnant at 16 (has v early miscarriage thank god). When I told her she revealed she herself had got pregnant at 16 and had a backstreet abortion and I should think myself lucky I didn't have to go through that. She also tried to get me to have a D and C (against my wishes) and after I miscarried (without needing that invasive procedure btw!) Never ever spoke of it to me again. Never offered me counselling, nothing. No talk, nothing.

I found out as an adult she and my Dad were into wife swapping, porn, all sorts of very un-victorian sexual experiences.

I'm not saying she should have been giving me blow by blow details of their swinging parties when I was a teenager but by pretending to be a buttoned up old prune about anything sexual I felt incapable of talking to her as I thought she would judge me for having sexual feelings. Ha! I went on to be a rather promiscuous teenager and have very poor boundaries when it came to sex and allowed myself to be used and disposed of talling myself I was "free", "independent" and in touch with my sexual side.

I still bitterly resent how she was and will certainly not make the same mistakes with my own daughters. I want them to be able to discuss things openly with me and not feel like they will be judged and condemned (hypocritically). I also want them to know their parents are human beings with human weaknesses and not set myself up like some paragon / martyr.

YoniBottsBumgina Sun 28-Jul-13 09:44:23

Yes. My mum suffered sexual abuse from several men sad so I can't really blame her for her views, she did her best, but I internalised the whole "men need sex or they don't feel loved" thing and ended up feeling incredibly guilty at times when I didn't want sex as much as my partners. Thankfully with a kind and patient man now who makes it very clear he isn't interested unless I am!

She was quite happy for me to have sex but never wanted to know details, she told me never to come asking for sex tips because she can't be doing with all that. She's been single almost 20 years now and told me in a shocked voice that her neighbour once recommended she buy a vibrator, she thought that it was weird to "care about sex that much". (I couldn't tell her I have several!) It was always cringey if anything we were watching had sex scenes in.
I still find it hard to talk about sex, excruciating to ask for something I want especially if it's not totally vanilla.

DP's family is the total opposite, to the point that I think DP doesn't realise how weirdly open about sex they are. He's managed to attract swingers before and other, single, people assume he is flirting because he can be so forthright. He just thinks it's normal to discuss position or technique or some kind of toy in the pub or with your friends from work confused His sisters bought their mum a "clit kit" from Ann summers when his parents stopped sleeping together as people of that generation often seem to do. I would and could never do anything like that. I wouldn't even talk to my sister about sex I don't think - she's never had a partner though so perhaps it will come in time.

missbopeep Sun 28-Jul-13 10:10:39

Not so much sex per se, but sex outside of marriage.

My parents - I think- have had no other partners except each other and waited until they were married.

When I married DH almost 30 years ago, my parents made him sleep in the spare room at their house 2 months before our wedding. We did live together for a couple of months pre wedding and my parents were embarrassed about this in front of their friends.

During my teenage years my parents were very protective and strict and warned me that boys would always ' get carried away' and that it was my role to stop them!

I think the overall message was that boys had urges, women didn't and it was our role to fight them off until they put a ring on our finger.

My dad used to talk along the lines of 'why [should men] buy into marriage if they can get what they want ( sex) without the commitment.'

CVSFootPowder Sun 28-Jul-13 10:27:05

My mum was very open about the processes involved in sex, and bought me a helpful book when I was quite young and had started to ask questions.
But the technical details, the 'how-to', all came shrouded in the message that sex was saved for someone you love, preferably only after marriage. In fact the sex / love thing was so ingrained in me that I mistakenly spent a couple of years in my mid teens thinking that if a guy wanted to have sex with me, it meant that he loved me. shock.
Obviously this skewed vision of sexual desire caused a lot of heartache when I was first sexually active.

DisgraceToTheYChromosome Sun 28-Jul-13 12:21:20

A bloke writes: my dad summoned up the courage after six pints to tell me this

"Three for her, one for you. Outside the family, inside the species, no new holes. Right, put the cricket back on".

Yup, works for us.

MargeSimpsonzzz Sun 28-Jul-13 13:34:52

Yeh, I think I inherited a view that succumbing to any sort of unnecessary (sexual) relationship was a bit silly, a self-destructive needless weakness. I never brought boyfriends home. I would have been too embarrassed. I only ever brought home my children's father,and that was sort of embarrassing too. When we split up, I knew my mother thought that there would be 'no point' to having a new partner ever again, now that I had kids.

To admit to her that I would like to meet somebody else one day would feel like admitting to a very self-indulgent weakness. and she is married, so she has companionship. But for me to admit to needing or wanting that too would make me feel so embarrassed.

MargeSimpsonzzz Sun 28-Jul-13 13:43:37

......... and so I'm not pro-active about looking for a man. I never try. I never flirt. And men certainly don't come to me as I'm in my early forties with two children and I only meet married women on a day to day basis really. So I probably will be alone for ever. My mum would approve though!

Diagonally Sun 28-Jul-13 13:50:10

Yes - sex was never discussed in our house at all. Worse though, I think, was that my parents never displayed any physical affection towards each other (or, for some years, any affection at all).

They are more affectionate now but by most peoples standards I would say still far from 'normal'.

The other damaging aspect was that I was taught that men, and men's needs, are more important than a woman's.

That has been hardest of all to deal with. Intellectually I reject it but emotionally it gets me every single time.

I have experienced rape, sexual abuse, emotional and financial abuse over a number of relationships and have problems with intimacy and boundaries.

Trying hard to change the scripts.

ChipOffTheOld Tue 30-Jul-13 16:34:21

I'm sorry I didn't come back before now - I forgot I'd name-changed! blush

There are some really sad stories here. sad It has been very helpful though to see that I'm not the only one affected like this. For many people it seems that you were given the idea that sex outside marriage is wrong, which I see must have been really tough when you were first experimenting and so on, but am I right in thinking this is much easier for you to deal with after you are married yourself?

For me the problem seems to be the other way round. When I first left home I congratulated myself on being all liberated and enjoying sex a lot, including what I thought were some quite adventurous goings-on. I was very proud of myself in terms of my sexual confidence. But as I've married and got older I have started becoming like my (not very D)M. I catch myself saying things I've heard her say, and the whole idea of sex now seems like a chore that women have to do to appease their husbands (ugh!). I vowed I'd never be this way but I somehow feel that sex is dirty - and not in an exciting sense! I don't know what has happened to me.

ChipOffTheOld Tue 30-Jul-13 16:37:05

Diagonally my parents seem much like yours and I have had similar experiences. It sucks, doesn't it?

I start to think that sexually confident young woman I was was just a sham, a way of gaining men's approval and not based on anything real in me. And now I'm married I don't want to put up a sham persona. Which has left me with...nothing. sad

badguider Tue 30-Jul-13 16:37:10

Mine just didn't talk about it at all... I still find talking about it hard (even though I have no problems with the doing of it at all).

YoniBottsBumgina Tue 30-Jul-13 16:40:49

That doesn't sound good sad How come you feel like sex is a chore now, do you think? Is it because your husband treats it as something which is expected or your responsibility?

I know how it can take the shine and enjoyment right off to see it as a chore. It got that way with my ex, but it isn't that way with my DP at all.

Jan45 Tue 30-Jul-13 16:45:32

My mum was very victorian and sex was a dirty word in our house - I couldn't ask her anything, when I started my period you would think I had committed a crime, her reaction was weird, almost like oh my god, now you can actually get pregnant. Nothing changed, I learnt the hard way. I worry about my friend who is middle aged and sleeps with every man she meets on the first night, she tells me she's horny and is having a great time, but I think she feels lonely and is looking for love so even a shag is giving her some intimacy, I was shocked at the wknd when she said she had a sore bottom, I was like, why? and she said, well I brought this guy back and....I had to put my hand up and say TMI lol!

I have myself no hang ups whatsoever with regards to sex and have always and still do enjoy it.

YoniBottsBumgina Tue 30-Jul-13 16:47:10

Ah I see - yes I have had that too. I sort of enjoyed it for the attention, for the effect it had on men and the sense of power I got from it. Then once I was in a long term relationship it became boring very quickly - not helped by the fact my ex was selfish in bed and interested in his own orgasm (and mine only if it was flashy/made him feel good somehow). His sex drive far outswamped mine and he started expecting "maintenance" shags/favours/whatever in between. It did become a chore and the little interest and enjoyment I had had in it died.

I can't explain why it is different with DP, it just is. It's never felt like a chore, and the enjoyment of it is different even. More of a connection rather than a power play sort of thing.

Jan45 Tue 30-Jul-13 16:52:45

It's weird that from time long ago men were to have their needs met and women were to provide the pleasure - thank god we've now realised that sex is enjoyable for us too, why else do we have a bloody clitoris?

welshharpy Tue 30-Jul-13 17:10:40

Same as you Jan45, sex and anything at all to do with it was NEVER mentioned at all when I was growing up. I didn't even tell my mum when my periods started as I found it excruciatingly embarassing! (Think she twigged eventually when half of her tampax was disappearing every month, although even then she didn't mention it and never has to this day.)
That experience growing up has made me very open with our dc and I am happy to answer any questions at all, she is not afraid to ask and I am very glad we have a much more open and close relationship where anything can be discussed.

venusandmars Tue 30-Jul-13 17:34:15

Like several others, I was given a very strong message that sex was only for within a married relationship. I remember getting a very stern lecture when I questioned my parents about a holiday they had taken (with friends) before they had married and they made it clear that they were hurt and shocked that I had even considered that they might have had sex before they were married.

I managed to put my own values above theirs though, and I have had very happy sex before marriage, and after marriage.

The longest lasting effect is that I was always told "no boys allowed upstairs" In my Mum's mind: upstairs = bedroom = sex The problem is that I now live in an upside-down house with the bedrooms on the ground floor, and every time I invite a guest to 'come upstairs' I blush as though I'd given them an open invitation to have sex with me blush

MargeSimpsonzz Tue 30-Jul-13 18:20:56

I put tampons in the trolley years ago. I was about 14 and I remember slipping them in hoping my mum wouldn't judge or comment. But no, she held them up and said "these are for married women". I just wanted to be able to go swimming at school without it being a big production.

I can imagine you at the front door still half blushing venus, even after all these years!

LemonBreeland Tue 30-Jul-13 18:22:47

My Mum wasn't great at talking about stuff like that. I thinl she vaguely told me about periods but never talked about sex. Bless her I think she thought she hsd done an alright job as my Gran never talked to my Mum about anything at all.

When I think back to my childhood there were many things my Mum dealt with badly, I think due to her upbringing. I vow to he much more open with my DC.

storynanny Tue 30-Jul-13 19:48:25

sex was not allowed under any circumstances before marriage according to my mother and yes like the other poster I was told you cant use tampons before you are married. it was made very clear to me that if I had sex which led to becoming an unmarried mother I would be kicked out and theywould never speak to me again for the rest of their lives. She also sighed when I said we had had the talk at school and said, yes thats how it works but women hate it. Feel sorry for my dad!
Hope I didnt put the fear of God into my own children when they were of an age to start having a sex life.

bibbetybobbityboo Tue 30-Jul-13 20:02:21

Yes and yes, both parents between them have succeeded in completely messing me up in that department and will both be completely oblivious to it. A combination of being exposed to a significant amount of pornographic material as a child and being made to feel completely ashamed and dirty when I started sleeping with my boyfriend amongst other things. I've considered counselling to try and fix some of the damage but I've never had the guts to do anything about it. I should say none of the damage was done consciously or maliciously it was just a complete lack of consideration.

cjbk1 Tue 30-Jul-13 20:20:23

things that have already been mentioned
marriage no dirty stuff not talking about it
but also the old testament (they were christians) idea of 'unclean menstruation' ...I don't follow their religion anymore and have no particular wish to
have sex at that time of the month but the thought that its hard to tell (with me at least) when a period truly ends always niggles at me and i wonder what they thought was going to happen if you did have sex then.....

ohdobuckup Tue 30-Jul-13 20:25:08

A close friend's mum was the opposite of closed about sex...she was competitive and challengingly open about having sex in the house.

The mum was an attractive, tall well -built woman, the dad quite a small guy, and they had a downstairs bedroom. They were open and "permissive" ( this was mid 1970's) and allowed my friend and her sister to have boyfriends to stay. I used to feel uncomfortable staying as the loo and bathroom did not have locks on them..too weird for me back then.

The girls were quite shy, did have boyfriends over, but recounted the behaviour their mother got up to if they did. There was quite a lot of suggestive talk, and then once everyone had gone to bed, mum would engage in very loud sex with dad.This was very loud ( I heard her once, it was a performance), and basically had the effect of putting everyone else off their ..er..stroke.

Both the girls, now in their forties and fifties, have had problems relaxing about sex and enjoying it, and put some blame at least on their mum's behaviour..basically she embarrassed them so much they felt slightly revolted by it all.

riskit4abiskit Tue 30-Jul-13 21:40:34

my mum was ok - bought me a book - which was good as I was a shy bookish kid! when I got to older going out age, she would say 'be good, and if you can't be good be careful' in a jokey way - but she knew I was always boringly sensible about everything. smile

however.

I was never 'allowed' to stop at my boyfriends even when I was 18, despite him stopping over at my place at uni! it wasn't the 'done' thing apparently. saying that, I am confident sexually with my partner, and wouldn't be shy discussing with friends but I wouldn't share any info with my mum. I feel it 'isn't the done thing!'

DanceParty Tue 30-Jul-13 22:45:35

I was brought up in the 50s and 60s to think, by my Father, that "nice girls don't have sex" (this was obviously designed to keep me on the straight and narrow until I got married when, of course, it would be ok. It was instilled so much that now, in my dotage, I realise that it has affected me my whole life. I haven't had sex for 20 years, never really enjoyed it when I did, and I got divorced because of it. sad

Dahlen Tue 30-Jul-13 22:55:36

My parents (well my mum, I think my dad would have rather set his scrotum on fire than talk to me about sex) were pretty open about sex. I was given the fact-based talk about penis, vagina, egg and sperm etc at quite a young age, which is something I have repeated with my own DC.

Talks about the emotional side came later. My parents were liberal in some ways and so didn't try to tell me that sex should only come after marriage, but did urge me to at least be in a committed relationship when I lost my virginity because it would be awkward, embarrassing and probably painful and I would find it a lot easier to get past that if I liked and felt safe with the person I did it with. They also told me that anyone who cared about me would not try to coerce me into sex before I was ready and made sure I knew about safe sex.

All sounds great doesn't it. And it was in the main. There were a couple of weird things there though. My mother put the fear of god into me about an unwanted pregnancy, so much so that I spent most of my marriage using condoms, spermicide and the pill (poor DH, though he turned out to be a bit of prat in the end and I divorced him anyway). And she also told me that in her opinion oral sex was disgusting and unhygienic. I was very surprised the first time I experienced cunnilingus, I can tell you!

Sparklysilversequins Tue 30-Jul-13 23:04:39

Oh yes. I had a lecture on how my virginity was a "beautiful jewel" and I should "give" it to someone I really loved <<rolls eyes>>.

When they found out I had had sex for the first time (by reading my diary no less) neither of my parents spoke to me for about three months. They both called me some awful names that I have never really forgiven them for.

I am not sure if it affected me, I have always had "one night stand" guilt and tend to develop strong feelings for anyone I have sexual contact with. Wish I could be more casual about it. I've turned down some utter stunners that I look back and could kick myself that I didn't just go for it.

MangoJuiceAddict Tue 30-Jul-13 23:41:22

My parents thought that making me sit out of sex ed classes would ensure I stayed a virgin (my parents are atheists so I've no idea why they're so obsessed with having a virgin daughter) and avoid boys. I fell pregnant at 17 and gave birth on my 18th birthday. I didn't have a clue how to use a condom (neither did my DH) so it ripped and DD was conceived. My DD (11) already knows about sex (biological aspects- not positions etc) and that there are ways to avoid getting pregnant. I will definitely allow her to go on the pill when she feels ready, I may even be the embarrassing mother who shows her how to put a condom on a cucumber blush. DH sees many pregnant teenagers in his job and apparently many of them admit to having religious/strict parents.

My dad bought me condoms! Just in case, and left them on my bed. Never told him that I had no use for them whatsoever and they went to my more ahem, active friends.
My parents were/are happily married, no adultery and had a good sex life as far as I know, they both let it be known that there was nothing wrong with enjoying it and having casual relationships, but that it was better with someone you cared about and that it got better the longer you were together.
Since meeting DP, that has been my experience too!

LePamplemousseMousse Wed 31-Jul-13 13:34:28

Chip a lot of what you are saying sounds familiar, although it didn't come from my own parents as much as the wider family.

My grandmother had a weird (perhaps typical for her generation and class) attitude to sex that it was something horrible to be endured, that men had these dark 'urges' that they couldn't control and you just had to suffer it if you were married. I understand she dreaded getting pregnant again and only equated sex with conception. She gave me a strong message from childhood that only sluttish girls had boyfriends (or even spoke to boys!) and made it clear that I wasn't allowed to. Any burgeoning friendship with a boy she made sure to sabotage. The idea of sex outside marriage was absolutely anathema.

My aunt spouted similar views and we had to sit through stalks about the evil urges of men and the 'service' they expected. She was quite a femme fatale from what I now know, so whether she actually felt like that or was just repeating lessons from her mum I don't know.

My parents certainly never discussed sex with me, but I do think my mum tried to be open and balanced on the topic - she used to make it clear I could ask or tell her anything (even though it embarrassed the hell out of me if she'd even try to start a conversation about bodily functions like periods...). When I was an older teenager she told me I should have a lot of boyfriends before settling down, as I needed to understand what different men were like and work out who would suit me. I think this was partly in reflection of the fact that she was a virgin bride and (although married for decades until he died) had a difficult relationship with my dad. In hindsight this advice is interesting, as she was basically telling me to have pre-marital sex, in direct contrast to her own upbringing. Needless to say I did take that particular piece of advice wink

I think because of my mum's approach the other stuff didn't really have an effect. I do wonder how I'll feel when DD starts having little innocent 'boyfriends' at primary school though. It was so ingrained in me that this was completely unacceptable (even the cutesy handholding type thing that lasts days usually) that I wonder if I'll find myself saying 'nice girls don't have boyfriends'. I hope not confused

ChipOffTheOld Wed 31-Jul-13 15:27:16

Really interesting replies! So many people seem to have had very straightlaced parents who thought sex was wrong. My mother was never like that. She just thought it was GRIM! And that you would only do it to exercise your power over a man. I was certainly never given the impression you should only do it in marriage - although confusingly she did call me a slut and a whore when I started seeing my first boyfriend, aged 16. confused

YoniBottsBumgina, yes! You have said it exactly right:
"I sort of enjoyed it for the attention, for the effect it had on men and the sense of power I got from it. Then once I was in a long term relationship it became boring very quickly"

This is exactly how I feel. It was all about my own sense of power and feeling sexy, which has disappeared completely now (fat and post-DC). My DH is not selfish in bed though, just very clumsy and fumbling. And he doesn't learn quickly and tends to resent any sign of "bossiness" so teaching him is hard. Sex feels like a chore, something i should do to please him, and then I rebel against that. I realise how much I have turned into my mother and feel very depressed.

ChipOffTheOld Wed 31-Jul-13 15:28:26

elinor, your parents sound great!

FobblyWoof Wed 31-Jul-13 18:13:25

I don't think their attitude towards sex affected me too much (though they never were affectionate toward one another-still aren't-ans drom conversations later in life I've learned thaty dad saw/sees sex in a completely selfish light-nor surprising considering he's selfish in all other aspects of life).

I think what has affected me more than anything were the self esteem issues I had as a teen and my parents not addressing it at all (they're bury heads in the sand types). As a result of low self esteem I felt like I couldn't say no to what boys wanted- as long as they were giving me attention sad

But there were only a couple of instances like that and me and dp have a good, healthy sex life

OldBeanbagz Wed 31-Jul-13 18:45:25

Sex was never discussed in our home and my parents never showed any outward displays of affection towards each other. I often wondered how they managed to stay together so long but i guess they've just stuck it out through the tough times (financial hardship, loss of a child & long term seperation through work).

So my sex education lessons came from school and i learnt about periods from my big sister (who learnt it at school). I never took boyfriends home, nor were they aware of who i went out with.

I waited until my parents were abroad for a few years before moving in with my then DP. It was easier than a face to face confrontation. It took me a few years to be happy with my sexuality but i'm relaxed and adventerous now (20+ years married).

Interestingly my mum commented to me recently that she read so many romance books because she 'doesn't get any at home'. So maybe she's frustrated?

something2say Wed 31-Jul-13 19:25:50

Very interesting isn't it, that sex equals bad and yet there is so much sexual a use that goes on.

I wonder if contraception will eventually equal responsibility about how many children we have because life expectancy has largely improved....

Plus I wonder whether the increasing openness around sex is a good thing, yet it has led so far to the sexualisation of women and now also children hearing and seeing sexualised images a lot...little girls in bras etc....and now we are beginning see women grouping together to say we are not sex toys, we are not owned by men, when they force us to have sex we won't keep quiet any longer....and top shelf magazines and porn as all now under fire and may hopefully begin to disappear......

!?

For myself, my mum was a girl to a mother and no father, who went on to marry. Mashed had an older brother and the parents had a new little girl, so my mum became surplus to requirements.

She then had two girls, me the second, and a son, and she always said she hadn't wanted girls...and I think that is because she wasn't wanted herself.....for being a girl...

She went on to be physically and sexually abusive to me and my girl ness......she also used to give my sister lectures about sex....but I couldn't stand being near her so didnt have to suff the lectures...

Even tho she hated me for being born a girl and would say that sex was a messy business.....I have not internalised this. I find being a woman wonderful and I embrace it. I don't have problem periods and I don't take the pill and enjoy being fertile and ovulating....I remember the peak of my fertile years, around 30, where I feel very sexual indeed when fertile.....

Sexually I did not internalise what she said at all. I hope people can get past what they were taught. To me sex is as natural as the need for food or sleep. It is a physical desire. I would be happy for our generation to turn this around for our children, and to stop seeing pictures of naked women advertising products and to stop rapes and the idea that women have to satisfy men, or that women who like sex are somehow of less worth. I think this idea that sex is wrong had more to do with how to pay to raise children in the past....and it is not relevant anymore.... So hopefully we can ,I've on to take responsibility of enjoying safe sex and not think anything is wrong with doing so and openly accepting it as pa of life. How people who have taken a vow of chastity thinking god wants them to...survive, I don't know! If life hasn't wanted us to have sex, life would not have made it!

YoniBottsBumgina Wed 31-Jul-13 19:49:34

Well the good news is that it can be different because I really enjoy sex now in a way I never did when it was about power, mystery etc. It's a weird thing.

You'd probably have to start from scratch with your partner, though. Would you/he consider couples' therapy or sex therapy maybe?

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