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For those of you who no longer speak to your parents...

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slatternlymother Sun 09-Dec-12 22:55:10

How are you finding it down the line?

I'm a year post breaking contact. It was at my mum's suggestion 'until you can come round to our way of thinking, there's no point in continuing to see each other'. They send birthday and Xmas cards, and gifts to DS at these times too.

Last night there was a family get together, but they didn't bother turning up. Luckily, my family knows the story, are aware of they'd oddities and are very sympathetic to me. If they'd have gone, I doubt he could've controlled himself and would have ended up screaming at us all.

I feel strange. Like accepting, in a way. Part of me feels like they've died. I look to the future, and I can't see them in it.

I think I'm moving on, and I feel really weird.

I'll stop now, because I sound stupid. But just that really. I don't want to talk to anyone in rl about this. I don't feel like I need to. This is enough.

Thankyou for reading.

sweetkitty Sun 09-Dec-12 22:58:53

4 years down the line

Feel ok about it, I grieve for a mother but not for her, I want my children to have a lovely Gran but they don't. I rarely see other family members, it gets o me when I hear about how she has my nephew overnight every week to give SIL and DB a break, how she does their childcare for them etc when she I'd nothing for us (but that's all my fault too as everything was).

I just try and focus on my own family.

lisad123 Sun 09-Dec-12 23:03:05

We managed 4 years before dh relented with his parents. I still say very very little to them and haven't really spoken to his dad for seven years.
It's very much an arms length relationship but at the moment it's working.

I'm sorry your having to go though this, but just remember the dim,y who do love you

i haven't spoken to my Mum or my older brother for a year and a half, although I am still close to my younger brother.

I am finding it fine actually, I do worry about what I will do if she gets really ill or when she dies <morbid>.

Like sweetkitty I just concentrate on my DH and DC just now, I guess I'll cross that bridge when I come to it.

NoNoNoMYDoIt Sun 09-Dec-12 23:04:40

Me too. Cut contact in feb of this year after my parents were reported to the police for abusing my 2yr old DD at a bus stop while I was not there. They made that into my fault too

I sent them birthday and mother/father's day cards from the DC this year. They sent the kids cards but no presents. And no card for me for 40th this year

Don't know whether to send Xmas cards from the kids or not. Kids still ask about them and when they will see them again. I just fluff it and say 'yes maybe sometime'. Does anyone have any advice on how to deal with this. DS knows a bit about what happened as a) he was also there when the abuse happened and b) he overheard me talking on the phone to my cousin about it one night while he was in bed

I have no siblings and am only really in contact with one of my cousins from my day's family

I do feel a bit disenfranchised now so to speak. I also got divorced last year so I now have no next of kin really. That is hard.

VicarInaTutuDrankSantasSherry Sun 09-Dec-12 23:05:07

12 years down the line. (possibly more if i count)

feel fine. if you broke contact knowing that it was absolutely the right thing to do then i think it just gets easier. i had some counselling last year after mother tried to make contact, however it was not the right thing for me and she wasnt saying anything i wanted to hear. it was best not to go there.

family for me is dh and dc.

slatternlymother Sun 09-Dec-12 23:05:16

I don't have any siblings, and they've largely cut themselves off from the rest of the family.

I feel sorry for my son, that he has NO gps in the sense of that word (people can act as gps, but it's not your mum is it?) and that I've provided him with that.

I feel sorry my DH has had to watch me go through this and put up with it all.

And I feel sorry for myself. I don't have that person to connect with in that mother-daughter way.

Greensleeves Sun 09-Dec-12 23:05:38

I don't feel as much as I feel I ought IYSWIM

If I really allow myself to drift into thinking deeply about it, then there is definitely a well of sadness there, but it is like you say - more like grief and acceptance. I know it's permanent. And I feel as though I did most of the really painful grieving over the period of years before I finally cut the cord, the years of trying to make a silk purse out of a sow's ear. The relationship was dead long before, on my side.

And I cried on Christmas day every single year without fail, until the last few Christmases when it has just been us. I am not dreading Christmas. It's worth it.

It's not ideal - nobody wants to have "failed relationships" in their past. But I look at how much my life has expanded in the few short years since I drew the line - I had no friends, no job, no confidence, nothing in my life except this huge vortex of need (my mother) which gobbled everything up and was never satisfied. Now I have friends, I'm a teacher, I have a strong relationship with dp and some days I can even bring myself to answer the phone. And I haven't had a proper panic attack for ages.

You don't sound stupid by the way. And there are LOADS of MNers who post about this. Hopefully they'll see your thread too..

Greensleeves Sun 09-Dec-12 23:06:31

fuck me, you lot type fast blush

slatternlymother Sun 09-Dec-12 23:09:05

Non Contact was the only real way forward. I'd cry before every visit, phonecall or contact. I'd work myself up, need to sleep for hours after from the sheer exhaustion. My whole body was on tender hooks, waiting for something to blow up. It was horrendous. Honestly some kind of mental torture.

I feel a bit flat, like I thought I'd be in pieces. But I'm not.

slatternlymother Sun 09-Dec-12 23:11:26

greensleeves do you think that's where my fear of talking on the phone comes from? I never thought of it like that.

I don't want to talk about what happened, it's in the past. I've had CBT etc, I find if I go over old ground, I end up going round in circles, searching for answers that aren't there.

Lozislovely Sun 09-Dec-12 23:17:31

I have had no contact with my twunt of a father for years.

Feel liberated now, couldn't give a shit if he dropped dead and wouldn't go to the funeral.

I did feel guilty for a couple of years thinking DS's would miss out but they haven't.

As long as you feel 'at peace' with your decision that is all that matters.

NoNoNoMYDoIt Sun 09-Dec-12 23:19:48

OP - I understand the relief at not having to face them ever again. Not having to be on tenterhooks in case my Dc did something to piss them off (like try to get their attention!!). If they pissed them off then it would be even more apparent that they weren't the GP's I wanted for my kids. I worked myself into a ball of stress before every visit. And then my mum would talk to my DS in ways which would make my blood run cold as it would bring back memories of how I was treated as a kid

But do you know what? I still feel a bit guilty that I couldn't sand up to my parents and say - don't talk to my kids like that. I still feel bad that I am denying my kids a 'relationship' with their GP's because I am too 'weak' to lay down the rules. I never stood up to my parents about anything. So I have turned my back and walked away from these people and in the process have stopped my kids from seeing them too.

They do still have a very good relationship with their other GM ( my ex's mum). But they still ask to see my parents all the time. They are only 6 and 3 tho. Doesn't make it any easier really.

Greensleeves Sun 09-Dec-12 23:23:00

I think it's possible - I know for me that's where my fear of the phone comes from. My mother used to use the phone like a choke chain on a dog when she was having one of her tantrums (think 30+ abusive messages left all through the night). So I haven't been able to answer the land line for a long time, I've panicked when it started to ring. It's receding now. Gradually. I actually phoned a friend today grin

I thought I would feel more guilty, actually. But I don't at all. In fact I stopped feeling guilty more or less immediately after I accepted that I'd made my choice.

You only get ONE life IMO. It's OK to do what's best for you and your dc. If you have a mother like mine, who likes to eat her young.

snoopdogg Mon 10-Dec-12 00:08:24

I've been sitting here fretting for about two days because I've decided not to extend the tattered, overused and cynically abused olive branch which has been in my sole possession for the past 45 plus years. After yet another abusive phone call about four weeks ago making me aware of my shortcomings as a mother, woman and member of society and of the extent of her disappointment in me, I have not called back to apologise or smooth things over. Yesterday I decided not to make a 400 mile trek to spend time with her over christmas and be tutted at, belittled and generally mocked.

I feel dreadful and empowered at the same time. I feel very sorry for my younger sister who will have to take up the christmas slack and for my children who will not see granny over christmas. As granny will not send presents or cards, they must be personally bestowed in order that she can bask in the full light of appreciation and gratitude (familiar anyone?) they will not get anything for christmas.

Empowered because I will not have that voice at my shoulder, questioning, mocking and deriding my every move. I will be relaxed, I will be able to answer the 'phone, have friends round, pop out when ever I feel like it, have a glass of fizz with breakfast, not have a gallon of bailey's after dinner, watch the queen, eat at 2pm, let the kids stay up/put them to bed early, go to church/not go to church, fart, sleep in my own bed and not walk and toilet her dog because she can't be arsed to do it herself.

I spent (invested) several thousand pounds in therapy after my father died. I thought I just wasn't coping with losing him but it became clear I wasn't coping with what was left behind. Once he was gone - the buffer between me and my mum - I had to deal with her and how I felt about her and how she feels about me. She doesn't like me, she's never liked me and, to her credit, she's never pretended otherwise.

I can sum up three years of intensive psychotherapy in one sentence and this is my christmas present to everyone who posts on this topic:

You can't change them, you can only change how you respond to them.

I still feel guilty, I still struggle but the above is a basic truth.

Happy Christmassmile

Hi NoNoNOMyDoIt,

re your comments:-
"I understand the relief at not having to face them ever again. Not having to be on tenterhooks in case my Dc did something to piss them off (like try to get their attention!!). If they pissed them off then it would be even more apparent that they weren't the GP's I wanted for my kids. I worked myself into a ball of stress before every visit. And then my mum would talk to my DS in ways which would make my blood run cold as it would bring back memories of how I was treated as a kid

But do you know what? I still feel a bit guilty that I couldn't sand up to my parents and say - don't talk to my kids like that. I still feel bad that I am denying my kids a 'relationship' with their GP's because I am too 'weak' to lay down the rules. I never stood up to my parents about anything. So I have turned my back and walked away from these people and in the process have stopped my kids from seeing them too".

I would suggest you post on the "Stately Homes" thread if you have not already done so and read "Toxic Parents" written by Susan Forward.

FOG - fear, obligation, guilt are commonly felt by children now adults of toxic parents. You have not denied your children a relationship with them, your parents did that to themselves by their actions towards your children. You were also conditioned by your parents from childhood to believe that you had no voice.

Children need protecting from such toxic malignant relatives and to my mind you are doing the right thing by protecting your children from them. They do not need such awful influences in their lives but positive role models. Toxic parents more often than not make for being toxic grandparents as well so are not nice to be around anyway. They use the children to get back at their what they see as errant offspring. Card and gifts are used as control mechanisms. You would not tolerate such from a friend, family are truly no different.

Your parents abjectly failed you as a child (understatement) and continue to do so.

Re cards and gifts I would suggest you do not send any cards; cards can be used by such toxic people as a way in to establish contact.

Also if you do receive any cards or gifts from them, shred all cards without opening and take any gifts to the charity shop.

YoucanringmySleighBells Mon 10-Dec-12 07:53:13

I wrote this very same post one year after I cut contact. Almost word for word!! I was mourning. I spent a whole year panicking that they would show up and when they didn't I really felt low, lonely and orpahaned.

I am now 2 years on and it had got a little better. It is very hard to see other people with their parents. Christmas is very hard because I know my children are missing out on grandparents altogether. My DH's parents are deceased.

I still dream about them all the time, still have that 'oh' moment when I realise that I will NEVER speak to them again. I never know what to say when people ask.

It will get easier I am sure. But yes, I too felt like they had died and I felt very guilty for the sakes of my children. But there was no other option as I am sure there was not for you thanks

ScarletWomanoftheChristmasTree Mon 10-Dec-12 08:24:31

Hi slattern, 12-ish years for me. Immense relief that I didn't inflict this toxic rubbish on my daughters.

That line you said about "until you can come round to our way of thinking" is an absolute GIFT. Great, that's not going to happen - so you are FREE!

suckmycockiness Mon 10-Dec-12 12:29:58

I have had no contact with my mother since August 2011. She was seeing my dd (2 yrs 11 months) up until New Year's Eve when she decided that she could not bare the fact that she could not make demands over seeing my dd. I realized a long time ago that my mother is a very controlling person. Our relationship has always been unstable since I was around 16, and only deteriorated even more as she sent me to live with my emotionally abusive dad, who has also been violent towards my older half brother and then myself.

I tried to re-establish contact with herself and my dd I around May of this year, she point blank refused and she did not like the fact that if she behaved how she previously had then she believed it was a possibility that myself and my DH would stop her seeing DD. I also invited her to my wedding, she said no, fair enough. Since our falling out last year I had sporadic contact with my two younger sisters and older brother, but they decided this year that they would be taking sides with my mother and therefore also cut off contact with myself and their niece.

Contact with my dad has always been sporadic, finally cut him off this June.

The only things that make me sad is my daughter not having a GM, and her Auntie's and Uncle from my side. I also have two young half siblings from my dad's side who I don't get to see now.

Apart from that I feel free from my mother's manipulative a d toxic ways. She's abandoned me many times over the last 10 years, so I'm not surprised she has gone so far now. I feel anger towards my siblings, and betrayal, big time. But they are all adults and the fact that they don't support me and choose to take sides which such a manipulative and judgmental person is sad. They should be helping the family stay together, but everyone has turned their back on me.

My DHs husband is extremely supportive, but I am ashamed of my family as they have directed their disgusting behavior towards very important members of my DH's family and also tried to isolate them. I am very close to some of them, but am still aware that if shit hits the fan, I am essentially alone apart from one or two very close friends who have supported me and tried to help me mend things through the fall out with my family.

I'd also like to add that I have ALWAYS been the one to extend the olive branch to my mother because I was never confident in my own choices, and always wanted to feel loved and validated by her. I wanted to MAKE her motherly and loving towards me, IYSWIM. But this time around I realized the way she treated me I COULD NOT tolerate. And I also realized as much as she likes to slate my dad, she like him is also emotionally abusive. All relationships - friendships, family, husbands, etc should be equal, and both parties should be happy. It was never like this with my mother, so I know I've made the right decision, and I feel FREE.

suckmycockiness Mon 10-Dec-12 12:36:53

And also, both my DH's parents passed away when he was very young. But his family are great and since the fall out with mine they have given me more support than I could ask for. I was very sad leading up to my wedding day knowing that NONE of my family would be there, I thought I would be sad on the day too. But it wast until about 4 pm that day when one of DH's cousins who lives abroad asked me about them that I realized I hadn't thought about them all day and I had felt HAPPY.

slatternlymother Mon 10-Dec-12 12:59:16

Hi, thanks so much for all the feedback.

I don't really question anymore whether NC was the right thing because I know it was. But around the beginning of December (when historically, it's all kicked off), I have been experiencing these brief periods of intense anger, almost rage actually. It seems to have gone now, but it really is like a period of mourning, even though the stress caused by contact with them was horrific.

25 years here! But it's only my father as my mum died when I was young. No regrets, I don't care how he feels about it, and I don't care if he's changed or not. It was the best thing for me, and it means my DCs have never had to tip toe round him, or worry about his temper.

differentnameforthis Mon 10-Dec-12 13:07:22

I am 20yrs in from cutting contact with my mother. To be honest, the way she is treating my siblings right now, no regrets at all.

I have 2 dc & I know for a fact that she hurt them to hurt me so I have no wish to put them in the position.

It is hard in the beginning, various times passed (my birthday, Christmas, birth of dc1) where I wouldn't hear from her & I would be upset, but in time I came to realise that she would never be the motehr I needed or deserved & that I was better off without her.

The fact that I have a wonderful MIL, who treats me like her own daughter, helps immensely.

Many, many years here with my Mum and two to three for my Dad and sister. I now have absolutely no contact with any of my family. What do I feel? Relief mainly.

sweetkitty Mon 10-Dec-12 15:53:59

I sent Christmas cards with money in the back unopened. She had previously said she never felt welcome in my house but her gifts and money always were hmm she used to make a big thing about how hard up she was, how she couldn't afford Xmas etc I said look don't get DP and I anything and just get the DC a token present they get too much. She gave them £50 each that year (usually £25) we had 3 at the time. It was the statement she was making. The year after I had cut contact but my brother brought up cards with money in then I sent them back unopened, I do not want anything from her. Nor do I give her anything anymore.

DD1 was 4 last time she saw her she's the only one that can remember her a bit, she calls her grumpy gran she doesn't see. My mother told me DD1 will know the truth once she's 16 (what truth???) oh I'm a cow that think I'm better than her.

The thing is she used to brag about me to everyone how great I was, the only one in the family to have gone to uni etc how she was the perfect mother.

Muminwestlondon Mon 10-Dec-12 16:08:50

I broke off contact with my Mum and her husband about 2 years ago after many years of abusive behaviour. She would delight in putting me down and would literally scream abuse at me. I would cry in the car on the way to see them - a 7 hour journey from London. I also found out that she beat up my younger daughter when she was about 2. The final straw came when she accused my lovely DH of being a paedophile.

Overwhelming relief at not seeing her is the main emotion. It is difficult sometimes - I have no other close relatives in the UK (DH's are all in Ireland) - it was my daughter's 16th this year and it was a very low key affair. No more visits to Cumbria, no phone calls, cards or birthday presents for the kids. It seems weird to me that other people have parents, cousins, siblings etc that they see and seem to get along with. My children support my decision, the incident that ended the relationship was in full view of them and they realise my Mum is probably insane.

My sister lives on the other side of the world and visits every couple of years. She has informed me that my Mum has heart disease and step-father's cancer has returned. I don't intend to go to their funerals should they die before me, they are already dead to me. My Sis will have to organise it or neighbours etc - I no longer consider them relations.

I broke off contact with my dad 11 or so years ago. It just got to the point where I had to decide whether I wanted my dad to be able to manipulate and hurt ds1 (then a baby) like he had manipulated and hurt me throughout my childhood. I decided that I didn't want that so I dropped all contact. I haven't seen him at all since then (well, once across the room in a sheriff court during my parents' divorce). I don't even think about him at all, unless something (like this thread) reminds me. I have no regrets. I doubt my dad cares at all. I doubt he even knows where in the country I live, or what my job is, or anything. Or even that I have 2 kids now. His loss, not mine. The only thing I've ever really regretted was that stopping contact with him stopped all contact with the rest of his family. I like my cousins, but it was either contact with everyone (including my father) or no one. I know I made the right decision.

It took me longer to distance myself from my mum (who is probably just as damaging, but in different ways). My parents basically used me (but not my sister) as a 'weapon' during their separation and eventual divorce. And my mum is generally quite controlling (although she sees herself as 'helpful' and 'generous'). I still have contact with her, but not all that much and on my terms. It took a debacle around DS2's birth (which she wanted to control and dictate) to get to this point. I feel very detached from her generally and would never phone for typical 'mother-daughter' stuff. I just don't trust her not to use stuff against me (usually when I'm at my weakest). It helps that we live about 3 hours away from her now and earn enough that we would absolutely never need anything from her. She's much easier to cope with now that the power balance has shifted.

OP: you don't sound stupid. I think you're really grieving for a mother-daughter relationship that never existed. It's very hard to come to terms with the loss of what you should have had. And this is what probably kept you holding on for so long, hoping that you'd suddenly have the kind of mother you should have. The hardest thing, I think, is realising that you never had it in the first place and never could. I think that's what I struggled with most when I stopped contact with my dad (obvious a father-daughter bond in that case). And the needing to have a mother is what kept me in my mother's power for so long. Having detached now (and it was really difficult to do so, and took a crisis to initiate it), I can see that I am not missing out on anything because I never really had it in the first place. Stupid power games are no substitute (and it is so wonderful not to care about all that anymore).

And also, it's really hard to get to the point where you see that it is not your fault that you don't have these great relationships with your family. There's nothing you can do; the relationships are flawed because your parents are damaged (and damaging) people. And it's nothing really to do with you.

The best thing to do is to concentrate on having healthy relationships within your own family: your DH and DC. And cutting off contact with your parents is one step towards that.

OwlLady Mon 10-Dec-12 16:39:21

It's 10 years since I have had contact with my Father and tbh the only thing that helped with my guilt was receiving psychotherapy and learning to deal with it that way. i think I needed to come to the realisation that it was him, not me, and the relationship i wanted with him was actually never going to happen and it was okay to feel sad about that - because it is sad, most women have a loving father - but I don't!

My reasons for cutting contact were similar to above in that I felt I didn't want him as an influence in my children's lives.

It's 12 years since I had any contact with my dad and for years now he just hasn't been in my thoughts at all. Five years since I spoke to my brother (he cannot be in touch with my mum/me and my dad at the same time so I decided to make that decision for him and stopped the contact after my DS was born - had had enough bullshit)

I suspect I've probably buried a lot but I'm ok with that. There is zero chance of bumping into him at anything family related - I do not speak to anyone who speaks to him (not deliberately, but happily - there is no one I'm in touch with who is in touch with him). I do consider him dead to me, in a way, but if I give it enough thought then I do feel sad that it ever was like this - but not regretful. But I have very solid concrete reasons for not being in touch - I mean, any individuals reasons are completely good enough but this is not a personality thing it's a lifestyle thing so it's very black and white. So I never dwell on it because, he is who he is and that's the end of it.

Pinkforever Mon 10-Dec-12 16:58:20

4 years down the line since I was disowned by my mum and one my sisters. I am happier with my mum out of my life as she spent all my childhood telling me how having kids ruined her life and not to have kids until I was at least 40hmm

I am sad for my eldest dc as they were close and now only see her twice a year-my mothers choice btw though she tells people I dont let her see the kids which is a complete lie!

I am expecting her annual xmas visit this weekend and am dreading it. She has recently found out my youngest sister-whom I am still in contact with-has had a baby and I know she is going to blame me for not telling her-should be fun especially if my other sister comes with her...

Merlotmonster Mon 10-Dec-12 20:29:42

All of you sound very brave and I hope you can remain strong and have some closure...I'm not affected by this so find it very shocking and sad to read these experiences..I just wanted to wish you all well through this difficult time of year..merry Christmas xx

nipersvest Mon 10-Dec-12 20:37:12

i haven't had any contact with my dad for a year, although prior to that our relationship was always strained, but last year, i made the decision to cut all contact completely.

oddly enough, just after i made the decision, i came face to face with him in the street. he didn't recognise me, which is kind of typical of our relationship and just compounded all the reasons why it was the right thing to do.

there were many reasons behind it, him being violent when we were growing up being just a small part of it all. the icing on the cake was when i found out he'd given both my brothers 10k as a gift and told them not to tell me about it.

i am better off without him tbh.

Cherylkerl Mon 10-Dec-12 21:07:54

Coming up for 12 years nc with my mum. Best decision I've ever made. It would have been longer but my resident parent dad made me wait a bit longer than I did as he wanted to be sure I'd done it for myself and not out of loyalty to him (she left the marriage) -which it wasn't.

Would be better if she didn't live locally but it's still better than having a relationship with her. It haunts me a bit if I'm having a shit time and I feel like having a mummy or milestones - big occasions, kids etc but she'd only steal the thunder anyway.

No cards, no phone calls, no contact. Seems such a waste but there's no way of having a good life with her in it. I've been having counselling and it's just confirmed everything and that she didn't become shit one day. She always was shit and has left such a mess to deal with.

Stay strong x

oldsilver Mon 10-Dec-12 21:18:33

18 years for me so well down the line - I don't have contact with any of them. They don't know where I live - Good.

I was told when I had my DS my feelings would change - that was 7 years ago, they haven't.

Bumped into them last year purely by accident. I completely reverted back to how I was before contact was cut, just in that very brief period of time. It took a fair old while to get over it.

Bogeyface Mon 10-Dec-12 21:24:11

2 years NC for DH with his family. They are still treating him like shit as they are trying to do him out of £40,000 in property that he owns, but every time they do something else it reminds him why he cut contact. They had actually cut him off first for not doing exactly what they wanted, when they wanted, but he then decided to not respond to any communications from them when they decided that they wanted something from him.

In many ways I think that he is coping with it better than me as I feel guilty because they blamed me for everything he did "wrong" and he defended me to the hilt. But then, he had bereavement counseling after he seemed to be struggling with the loss of his dad (many years ago, but he seemed stuck at anger and couldn't move on from that). The counselor actually focused on his cutting off, and being cut off from, his mother and siblings. She said that she felt that his anger was more likely coming from that. So she gave him bereavement counseling based on the loss of her and the sisters, and it really helped him. It helped him to see that he was grieving the loss of the mother he had always needed and wanted, and he was angry at her for not being any real kind of mother to him. He saw that he didnt miss her, he missed having a loving and kind mum.

I would definitely recommend counseling for anyone in this situation as it made a huge difference. It also helped our relationship because it meant that he understood that not everyone you love will hurt you so you dont have to protect yourself or get your punch in first (speaking figuratively).

He now calls my mum "Ma" and gives her hugs and kisses when he sees her. She treats him like her own son, and he has said that the few years he has had with her as his "mum" have shown him what he had never had as a child sad but also smile that he has it now and it makes him happy.

suckmycockiness Mon 10-Dec-12 22:05:12

OP, I'm so glad I read your thread and posted, and am now reading a lot of other posters' stories. I think a lot of traits that toxic families have are very similar: controlling, emotional abuse, manipulation, turning siblings against you....

I think counseling is a good step and from your thread I can see that I shall be needing some...

Zazzles007 Tue 11-Dec-12 04:12:01

Another whose decided to go NC with my toxic parents for at least the time being. I haven't seen of spoken to them since early this year, although I have managed to watch their crazy games from a distance. Earlier this year was last time I spoke to my mother, and she shouted at me until I cried over something trivial. I am seriously questioning whether or not to allow them back in my life ever. I've decided that I only want people who can bring happiness into my life. My self absorbed parents can't do that, everything gets turned around to be about them.

My narc sister I cut off about 15 years ago and have never regret it. The last time I spoke to her was when she rang me to diss on our mother for not calling her soon enough when our GM died. I will never forget when she said "Are you saying I'm not important enough? [to call sooner]" I hung up on her, and she has never bothered me since. I now know that it was the right decision all along.

Cathartic grin. Thanks for listening.

Ooh, there are a lot of us about, aren't there? 2 years down the line here. Whenever I remember that I don't have to see them this Christmas, I can't help it, a huge smile appears on my face. grin. <- like that.

Basically life is much much nicer without them in it. The sadness comes from seeing other grannies with their gcs, or mums and daughters, and knowing I never had that and never will. But I'm missing out on that because of the way my parents are, not because I don't have contact with them. The children don't even ask about them. It was never me that stopped my children having loving grandparents.

I do worry a bit about what I'd do if one of them got ill (I tell myself that I'd treat them the way they treated me when I was in ICU, but I'm not as evil as they are).

I'm watching out for the Christmas cards at the moment - I will bin them though. If they want to communicate with me, they can phone/email/write me a letter. From the comment they printed in large captials across the bottom of dh's birthday card, we know they are still being "poor little victim us, patiently waiting for evil Bertha to see sense and take things back to exactly the way they were, with no effort from us". Ain't gonna happen!

Snoopdogg - yeah, my mum wouldn't post presents - presents are for buying attention, aren't they? Well done on your decision, glad you're looking forward to your Christmas!

SleighBells - a couple of people have asked about my parents, and I've tried to say a non-committal "I don't see them" but that telltale huge grin sneaks across my face as I do it ... People have been surprisingly understanding, actually.

bumbagsnbananaslides Tue 11-Dec-12 20:43:34

10 months for me since ive went NC with my dad

put up with his crap abusive,nasty behaviour until my DS was born,i saw the same behaviour starting with the way he spoke to my DS

he abused my DM, DB and me mentally,emotionally and physically

i have gone through lots of emotions this year,happy,sad, guilty,scared but i also feel free that i dont have to put up with the shit he used to give me anymore

i also still feel like im grieving but DH says im grieving for the dad i never had

i cried on my birthday and no doubt ill get upset at xmas,stupidly there is that tiny bit of hope in the back of my head that one day he ll apologise and magically become a different person

i no that wont happend and wont go back on the decision i made

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