Charlottes Webb.

[CWebb]

Its Charlotte here.For a few reasons we need to stay awhile longer,( my son has to have a small operation). I feel sick at the thought of seven more weeks, I am ready to go and have emotionally prepared myself.I have to stay here in this house and I am so small in his web,it is almost unbearable.I have to act like I am dead,he has spun me so many times and he likes to watch me, lifeless and insecure.I have wrote a list of things I can do to keep me sane,long walks,writing,taking the children to the cinema,buying little treats for myself(and posting them to the new address!).Does anyone have any other ideas?It feel like forever but I just have to get through this and feel safe in the fact that our new house is secure and ready waiting for us.....

[Anniegetyourgun]

Hold tight, Charlotte. Seven weeks may feel like forever, but there is an end in sight. Having things waiting for you at your new house is a good idea. I had a high shelf on a cupboard where I had my "getaway stash", stuff like a pretty (but as it turned out very feeble!) cutlery set, a promise to myself that I would be in my own place soon.

Does he know you're going?

[CWebb]

Oh thanks Annie,just knowing someone is out there is a huge support.I am a private girl and everyone I know is so far away,although waiting with open arms.Our tickets are booked...he knows but but not in the same way as I know.It is my birthday tomorrow so I am going to buy some treats, and work is a wonderful haven to hang out in.Thank you for checking in.

[illhaveacoffeeplease]

i love the thought of buying things and sending them to the new place, that is brilliant!
What do you mean though by "he knows but not the same way as i know"? i didnt really get that?