I've just found out I'm pregnant, which is a miracle considering we have had sex once in 5 months and I had to instigate it through complete desperation. I'm so happy for DD, as she has been asking for a baby brother or sister for some time, however I'm in a total state of disbelief.
DH has told me that if I want the baby, I will have to return to work as soon as I've had it or we won't be able to afford it. I'm taking "if" as a suggestion that I can choose the fate of this child, which is heartbreaking in itself as I have miscarried before. He hasn't asked me once how I am, has not cuddled me or refuses to discuss the baby because he's got "too much going on" apparently
Some of you know my history- I moved over to Sydney for DH, as he had this great idea that he could set up a successful business over here. After 2 1/2 years we are in debt and I am getting daily abuse as to why I am not earning, even though I'm doing everything I possibly can to drum up more work ( I had a 3 book publishing deal that was dropped recently due to the sale of the company) I left a good career, amazing family and friends and a lovely house in Brighton to end up calling the local council here, pleading for benefits.
He blames me for everything and now- get this - he has blamed me for getting pregnant because I asked for sex.
I know everyone tells me to leave him and believe me, the plan was to test that option out when I fly home for 2 months next week, however this news has left me in limbo. What the hell do I do?
I know I need to start working asap - I had actually applied to study for early years PGCE in Brighton next year as I can't live off children's books at the moment . Now I will have to defer this and DH is using this against me.
I'm totally gutted as I've always wanted 2 children. I should be happy. There should be a positive solution to this, but all I hear is negativity. I cried all night last night.
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I can't do this anymore.........
brightongirldownunder · 10/06/2010 06:16
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