I have name-changed. Feeling utterly torn up inside. I married young and quickly (23 after 19months together), had DS 2 years later, he's now 18mo. I think I always knew that I'd married a stable man who loved me and was offering an escape from the mess I that I was. We've been happy together, but obviously hvaing a baby has thrown a bit of a grenade into our relationship. We had a conversation recently where we said we've just got into the habit of being a bit mean to each other. DH is making such an effort but I feel myself withdrawing more and more. I feel so sad. I've always known in my heart that maybe he loved me more than I him, he's always said he thought he'd have to settle for someone and is so happy he didn't with me. I feel I settled. I feel so selfish and horrid, for agreeing to marry him in the first place, for having a baby who is now stuck in the middle, for preventing DH from finding someone he deserves. But I am terrified for DS's sake more than anything of walking away from our marriage.
Am I being completely over-dramatic? We had a whirlwind relationship, I fancied the pants off him, we still have regular and very good sex, but I feel like a fraud and just don't know what to do.
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littleearthquakes · 13/05/2010 12:51
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