I like a sexual relationship and it's important to me - very stupid etc but it helps make me feel loved. (Not just that, obv, there are other factors!)
My DH is not so fussed, it seems; I was his first and he was a late starter, shall we say. Never a headboard rattler, more gentle and loving, and with substance, which was nice after some of the wild times (and miserable but sexually good) relationships I'd had in the past.
After the birth of DS, we stopped having sex, and it was for over a year; more really, because it was very very infrequent. We were also having other relationship problems - fighting and arguing, extreme tiredness, new baby.
Anyhow, it had been over a year, but I decided time was to make something happen, so I did, last weekend; I opened a bottle of wine and made my move.
But...it was rather rubbish really. TMI coming up, but he didn't stay inside me, but pleasured himself (with me there obv!), but it took aaaaaaggeeeees for him to reach climax. He even apologised a couple of times! It wasn't great, but then I decided now that we'd broken our duck we should try to maintain it, but the next night he said he was too tired, which felt like a mega rejection.
We don't live together - he works away - so it's weekends only. I guess he's been getting his kicks elsewhere; not an affair, but maybe porn or whatever. I am now totally panicked that I'm not as good/attractive/obvious(!)/professional as his pictures, and he can't really climax inside me or even with me. Am I being paranoid?
What do I do, do I try to find what's been giving him pleasure when I've not been involved? Or is that a bad idea? Is there anything I can do?
I just want him to be mad for me, to lust. But he doesn't and I feel all mumsy and pedestrian really. I used to be quite adventurous but it's like some different life. I want that back, but with my DH - but I'm seriously wondering whether it's possible.
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No sex has become bad sex...major paranoia, what do I do?
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Marmadillo · 05/05/2010 22:45
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