Namechanged for this as it's a bit and and I'm a bit embarrassed tbh.
Short version - known OM for 8 years, had a brief fling but drifted apart, have both had relationships but we seem to keep missing each other being single, IYSWIM.
It was so good when we were together, and I've seen him occasionally over the years, we always get on as if we've never been apart. I really believe we are soulmates. (Sorry, cheesy I know but the connection is so strong that's the only way I can describe it)
On sunday I was out with friends (DP stayed home) and OM was out too (best friend's DB) I told him I sometimes miss us, and asked if he ever thought about it. He said he does
We chatted about how it's funny the way things turn out, and wondering what could have been had we chosen different paths. Conversation was interrupted a lot as we were out with others; he said we should continue the conversation again, and I have his number don't I?
It feels very selfish of me to want this conversation with him knowing that I won't act upon it, as I can't leave DP and DS. I would never consider cheating but I always find myself making excuses to myself to get away with seeing OM. (I don't, by the way, this is all in my head!) I think things like, "one more kiss wouldn't hurt, get it out of my system" which I know is wrong because I'm with DP, and unfair and almost teasing to OM. But I can't help feeling that I need to tell him
Sorry for such a long post, I had to say it somewhere, can't tell anyone in RL as it sounds so pathetic, but it's been going round and round my head for days!
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doyoubelieveinsoulmates · 04/05/2010 15:19
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