I didnt see /speak/no contact at all with my mother from the age of 19 to 28 ( might have been 29).
When we started a relationship again i had just seperated from my husband and was a bit of a mess. Me and ex dh were on a off for a while and we are finally getting divorced now.
Over the last year i have started to slowly feel more and more like myself. its been a slow and sometimes painful process as i recongised how unhappy i was and how over the years i had lost myself. I feel more like myself that i ever have done. Im still a work in progress but im definatley a lot happier.
My mother is not happy about this at all. She keeps saying its not me. Except it is me. she just didnt know me as a grown up at all. The only grown up me she has known is a very stressed out super in control and under pressure person. which is not who i am at all.
My style of clothes and hair has slowly changed and she doesnt like it. Im back to being spontaneous and taking things as they come. making no plans. she doesnt like this and says i like to plan things. BUT I DONT. I never have done its just i was in a situation where i had to else i wouldnt have coped.
She doesnt like my laid back attitude to things how i am enjoying music and clothes and friends again. she keeps reminding me i am a mum and should not try and be so 'cool'.
and whats making me most angry is that she is attaching all this change in me to a man who she has never met. someone ive been seeing for a short while. she says beacuse he is like that i am becoming like that. But tthats is not the case at all. I stopped wearing a watch last summer as i was sick of looking at the clock and working out when i needed to do things and how many hours i have to do them in. She has only just noticed and apparently its 'his' fault.
its making me very angry. 'HE' is lovely and my friends and other family have noted how he is exacally my type pre marriage. if he was in a line of up men he would be the one they would know i would picl=k. ( based on looks alone) however my mother cant stop going on about my ' odd' choice in men and why i have come over all atrange.
how can i get her to realise its not beacuse of him. its beacuse of me. this is who i am.
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finding myself after divorce and my mothers disaproval of that
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iamwhoialwayswas · 02/04/2010 09:18
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