My relationship with my mother has always been complicated, I needed more from her than she was prepared to give, and as I child it felt like I was always asking for more affection and not getting it. She has told me that I was a very clingy baby and she actually went away for a week when I was little (I don't know how young), as she couldn't cope, and I cried the whole time!
I have suffered from depression before and it has come back in this pregnancy. She saw me a few months ago, adn I had a real meltdown, can't cope etc and she just dismissed it as "hormones"! - she has never wanted to know about or deal with my depression.
I she recently told me, as something that is really funny, that 21 months ago when DS was born, she was actually in the same city as me the night he was born, but didn't come and see him the next day, as she had to get her train!
Now I had a really bad birth experiance last time - induced, left to scream on maternity ward with no attention for two hours without being checked and people visiting in the next beds etc, .left on continuous monitoring without anyone looking at the results (the machine ran out of paper). Finally moved to labour ward as passing midwife realised DS's heartbeat was lower than mine, and it turned out I was fully dilated and already pushing! - so fairly traumatic all round, and, as you can imagine I am really worried about the impending birth of my second son.
My lovely MIL has offered to come and stay but she is in ireland, 70, and not that well, so its not really fair to her, my lovely SIL had cleared her diary for a month and is prepared to drive down at a moments notic but lives hours away, so I am really scared I won't have DH with me when I give birth.
I mentioned to my mother, would she be prepared to come and stay before the birth to help out her responses where;
But I might have to stay for as much as a week, for just one event.
I could come on the 28th and the baby might not come till the 30th of 31st!
And, when she thought I was asking her to come to help when I went into labour: But I would have to come at 5 hours notice.
I know from experiance that there is no point in saying anything to her - I am just told that its my fault, that I expect too much, and that she just deals with these hurts as your children just hurt you.
So tell me, am I being demanding to expect her to not just totally reject out of hand the very idea of helping me with the birth of my second child.
NB when I said that I didn't think she would be prepared to help, she really liked this, I think she thinks she is really independant and cool! When she arrived to visit 11 days after the birth of DS, she announced that she wasn't cooking, cleaning or making cups of tea, as she was the grandma and that wasn't her job!
And please be gentle, I am really struggling with this as once again I have to swollow how I feel whereas she prides herself on telling me if I ever upset her!
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once again so angry and hurt by my mother, again
BumptiousandBustly · 02/01/2010 20:12
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