I was bereaved last year and alone until I met a lovely man in the summer who is also widowed with children. We became good friends over several months and became more than that around 3 months ago. We have had a good relationship and not had arguments or disagreed about anything, we have struggled to spend enough time together and at times this has made me very unhappy, I often cry after he has left me or I leave his house to come home. I had given up talking about this problem as due to our family and work commitments it seemed impossible to improve things and when we discussed it we had both been distressed.
This week has been particularly hard and we managed to see each other for only about an hour and a half one afternoon, an opportunity has come up to spend two nights away with him next summer and he refused to commit to more than one, even though 3 of our children would have come with us solving his childcare issues We have both longed for the chance to spend a whole night together, or so I thought. He said he couldn't be sure what the children's commitments would be so far ahead. He had even suggested we shared a room, which was a massive step for us as we haven't let the children know about that side of our relationship, although they know that we are "dating" or whatever you call it when you are in your 40's and all seem happy with that. I felt so hurt and there was as usual no time to talk.
I sent him an email which I tried to keep calm and unemotional as there was really no other way to communicate this week. He took it as "formal" and sent me a snippy reply which completely missed the point of what I had said. When I finally saw him today we still couldn't talk as we were out with other friends, he told me that for him the email "had taken the shine off" our relationship and although we had a hug and he said he didn't want to hurt me, he said he needed time to think about our relationship.
We have agreed to speak tomorrow on the phone. I have doubts as to whether he is trying to back off and scared of committing in any case. Although he is further on from his bereavement I have doubts about whether he is ready for a new relationship. I have deep feelings for him which he knows and I am so afraid that if he breaks my heart then I will be utterly unable to function for myself and the children, I have just about got myself back on an even keel after my bereavement. Where do I go from here?
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justwishing · 13/12/2009 22:36
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