Am a regular but have name changed for this. Really sorry as I don't particularly like name-changing, but felt I had to for this.
OK sorry if this is long! Sorry for the 'list' way I've written...:
-Have been with DP 7 years as a couple & many years before that as a friend. I always felt he was my closest person & have never loved anyone as much as I've had him
-We've had problems (intense arguments / sometimes involving screaming etc) from the start of the relationship.
-Now we have a toddler. DP is a wonderful dad & loves DS to bits & spends loads of time with him.
-DP tends to go through depressions, has always done so.
-DP never wanted children & is also very very financially wary & tight (even though we're financially comfortable). He doesn't work though & is very reluctant / scared / don't know what about it all. He's in the middle of a career change (doing a training) but I think he's taking far more time than we expected to & it doesn't seem to me that he'll be working any time soon. So most of the financial burden falls on me (which up to a point is fine).
-Our main problems atm are: the fact that he's SO anxious about money. The fact that, bizarrely, he's not willing to work. The fact that our fights (which tend to get circular & ugly) seem to be getting worse. Or at least they haven't changed. And the main thing: he just dropped the bombshell that he doesn't want a second child, it's too much of a 'burden' (in his mind), DS has really taken over his life / mind, he says he can't concentrate on his work / training (even though I do by far the biggest portion of childcare plus we have regular help). He also talks of financial reasons. I on the other hand, maybe because our relationship is more generally on the rocks, can't give up on the possibility of a second child. I feel if I did that I would simply hate him for it.
-Time is not on our side. I'm 37, he's late 40s. We'll need fertility treatment to have our second baby (that's how we had our first). He seems to change his mind every second minute about it. Only yesterday he told me three things. First, that he's not having a second child, not ever, he doesn't want it. Second, at some other point, he told me OK lets have a second child but you (me) take over responsibility / financial issues etc (which up to a point I'm already doing & would be happy to provided he started to work even for a small salary). Third thing he said, that we should put it off for a few years, but which time though I'll be over 39 & with fertility treatment involved chances will be slim.
Anyway, that's the story. Any thoughts? I'm really sad & desperate, we fight & fight & fight. We used to love each other as much as 2 people can love each other, and I guess we still do, but life has kind of gotten in the way & we can't seem to make the relationship work. I suspect he stays with me because of DS (not only, but as a major factor). He adores him & can't even imagine living apart from him (cries & goes into a panic just at the thought).
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Need help: serious problems in my relationship...
isitamistake · 25/11/2009 17:04
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