I am just posting to get this down on paper so to speak. Used to post a lot on Mn about this but of late don't anymore. Doens't really seem any point.
I don't have a good relationship with dh. We nearly split up last year but at last minute decided to have another go. I do love him somwhere deep down I think but a part of me acknowledges that I am staying with him for the kids only.
I have 5 kids and have just seen anotehr close family to us go through divorice. The kids are really suffering even though these are 2 of the most civil parrents in the world who never argue in forn t of th ekids.
We fought a few days agao and as in teh same patern it just continues to get worse. Today he hurled insults at me such as I have no friends, am sad, am disgusting etc.
Earlier he had pulled open a drawer to reach a spoon when I was stnading ther with no thought that the drawer would hit me. It did althojgh not hard so I slammed his hand in the drawer. Didn't intend it to be hard - just a sort of slam back but it cut him and hurt him. I felt bad about that but also felt that the physical scar of being hurt is not so much wosrses thatn the mental scar of someone not even acknolwedging your presence in their way and bothering to say excuse me or even "move" before they open the drawer on you.
Just fed up .
Won't divorce because Im not strong enough.
You dont even need to reply.
Just felt like reaching out.
No-one to talk to in real life as they're all mutual friends and last time when we nearly got divorced I eventually confided in 2 mutual friends after suffering for 5 months ( when we didn't speak to eachtheorh at all) in silecen and never heard the end of it all
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lisalisa · 22/11/2009 19:49
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