I'm posting this because I desperately need some emotional support.

I am 29 weeks pregnant after a brief fling with a man who said he wanted to be with me and have babies, and then changed his mind when it (accidentally) happened.

I see him sometimes (he's my bloody neighbour!), and he's helping, in the sense of fixing my car and bringing me firewood, but is in absolute denial that he's done anything wrong at all.

Hence, I don't want to rely on him or open up to him about my need for emotional support because I don't trust him to respond appropriately.

I thought my close friends would be there for me, but they have completely melted away over the last few months. Obviously I am too boring for them to bother with at the moment.

More seriously, I feel that I have been there for them when they have had shit times (especially one who also had a baby on her own), and now that I am in a really bad way they are wrapped up in their own problems.

One of these friends was going to be my birth partner, but she hasn't spoken to me about this for months, so I guess that's not going to happen.I don't know what's going to happen at the birth.

I feel very lonely and afraid. I know it's important when I'm pregnant to look after myself, but this is keeping me awake half the night and making me v. tired;- it's also worrying when you read that long-term stress will have an effect on the baby- but how can I not be stressed and anxious under these circumstances?

I'm desperately trying to keep everything together and not lose it- I feel there will be nobody there for me and the baby if I do lose it totally.