I've namechanged for this, and have posted in 'Relationships' because it concerns my relationship with myself - so sort of fits.
I have looooong had low self-esteem and low self-confidence. I grew up learning this from Mum, and having it reinforced by Dad. And now, having hit thirty and being on my own for the first time in a long while, I can see how much it has influenced my life until now: it's been involved in choosing undermining partners, in holding me back career-wise, in feeding a social anxiety that seems to get worse the older I get, and is even kicking in now with existing, solid friends.
Just below the surface lurks a very low opinion of myself, a harsh voice with something derisory to say about all I am/do. I don't want to feel like this anymore. I don't want to set this example to DS. And I would like to evolve enough myself to be able to find a healthy relationship in the future - which is unlikely to happen if I stay as I am.
So what I'd love to know is how can I learn to like and believe in myself? How can I learn to feel confident enough in my own skin to be able to mix comfortably with others, without self-consciousness? I showed so much promise at school, and feel I have so little to show for my time since; I feel overtaken by my peers. I want to get back in the game - and I think I need to be happy with who I am to do that.
Anyone managed this kind of turnaround? How?
Grateful for any words of wisdom.
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Learning to love yourself - anyone gone from self-loathing to self-esteem and confidence? How?
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biscuitbuddy · 21/05/2009 16:38
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