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Please be kind to me as I am very fragile right now.
Long story short:
Met ex DH in 1996. Married in 1998. Knew he had Male Fertility problems but thought I loved him and we could get thru it. We did to a certain extent.
L arrived in 2000 after 4 ICSI.
Seperated in 2002. Divorced 2005.
Met current DP in 2003. Fell pg and had T in 2004. N in 2006 (13mths between them).
So, 3 kids, 2 fathers.
Only thing is, I HATE my DP. I can't even touch on how and why as it all seems so minor taken seperately.
He has major communication problems, in that he just doesn't. It is like talking to the wall. I know you will probably think that itis just a man thing, but believe you me, this is different.
I can be on my hands and knees sobbing and begging him to just talk to me, and he just looks at me, and says nothing. I love my boys dearly, but God I wish I could turn back the clock to when it was just me and L.
We met when he was 42. He had never known any children and was very'wooden' with L. He was a great conversationalist at that time with me, but I suppose we were drinking more and getting to know each other better then.
Then I fell pg with T and he was unexpectedly pleased.....and then the money issues started to creep in!
If I so much as bought anything to wear(maternity) it was closely questioned, as in 'do you really need that' and so it went on and on.
I thought it could only get better, which I suppose it can, as it can't get worse.
I became pg with N when T was 4 months old. So didn't go back to work.
DP earns one hell of a lot of money. I live in a beautiful house and when people come here they oooh and aaah about it. But I am soooooo unhappy. If I could kill him and get away with it, I would do. There is no love in this house only my love for the kids and vice versa.
Some of you will say, get out, you are worth more than that, you deserve to be happy. I agree. It would be easy to pack up the kids, dog, cats and all that they all entail. but wher do I go after I have started the engine.................?
I am so confused. When me and my ex DH split up I moved into one of the houses that my dad rents out. No probs, just me and L, working 3 days a week, good salary. 3 bed semi - more than big enough
He only has a 2 up 2 down now which he has just put on the market to sell. I have 3 ever growing kids, no salary, in fact no nothing. I gave it all up to look after the kids and I loved my job.
DP gives me £700/month. I am constantly £1500 overdrawn and paying easily £150/month in fees(more probably)
I pay £70/month to a christmas club so that I can pay for presents and food at Christmas. Everything for the kids, clothes, shoes, music lessons, dinner money, presents for their friends, car and maintenence, school trips, mobile. And of course food which is about £450-£500/month.
My parents don't know yet, altho I think they have an inkling.
Help me...where do I turn?
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muralpainter · 20/05/2009 23:04
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