Earlier I put a post in the parenting area because I was worried about my temper with my kids but after a few responses, I think I should have posted my problems in this topic.
I have been trying to leave my partner for about 4 years. Obviously not every day but it's always in the back of my mind. I have been unhappy because I know that if I stay with him, I won't reach any of my goals in life.
He lives off me financially and gives little in return. I like to have money saved up for emergencies - he lives for today and can't even get himself off to the doctor without getting me to pay. He is a skilled tradesman who hates working. He helps out with the kids and house a little but I still do about 80% as well as being the provider. Our sex life has never been great and in the 6 years we've been together, I have never been able to say "I love you".
I care about him but don't think I love him. He knows some of the little things I like and refuses to do them (eg cup of tea in bed or a foot massage) but expects me to do things for him without a word of thanks.
Only reason I'm still here is because he has intimidated me into staying - refuses to move out and says he won't let me take the kids if I go. Also, if I leave, I will have to pay rent and also pay the full mortgage because the loan is fully in my name.
I don't really even know who I am anymore but know that I was so much happier in life before I met him. I know I should go to counselling or something but when I think about our relationship in the short-term, I think mediation is a good idea. But when I look at the longterm I think that a 43 year old man who has never changed and doesn't think he's doing anything wrong, probably can't change.
I have compared notes with the mother of his eldest child and 15 years ago, he was the same man. The girlfriend he had after her, went crazy and tried to commit suicide several time. She miraculously recovered and sorted her life out once they split up. My other half says he wasn't to blame for her state of mind but sometimes, I feel like I'm going crazy too.
Should I bother with counselling or just take the plunge and get out now before I do lose the plot?
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Sshhbear · 24/04/2009 12:30
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