Have name-changed for this, although am not a mum, but a fairly regular poster.
Have been with my partner for four years. We met, and I have to say sparks didn't fly for me. He was lovely though, sweet and kind. The first time the opportunity for sex came up he said he was too drunk. I remember once I was giving him a BJ and he stopped me mid-way through, saying he felt uncomfortable.
To cut a long story short, we have been together for four years and had sex approximately 4 times. After a string of bad relationships with 'bad men', I thought this was something I could build on with my current partner, and sex and attraction would come with time. This hasn't happenend, and over time I'd convinced myself that this is only part of a relationship. He provides me with affection, security and steadiness.
We recently went on a skiing trip with six others. I ended up spending a lot of time skiing with another guy and we got on really well. Nothing happened and he lives in another country so that isn't a factor in itself. There were sparks though, and the point is it awoke feelings of passion and desire in me that I'd squashed down for over a year now and that I now acknowledge I'll never feel for my current partner.
We've been so long without sex in our relationship that the thought of doing so makes me feel slightly squeamish. We feel more like flatmates than partners in love.
This isn't good is it?
Since returning from our trip, I've been researching flat lettings.
I know this will break his heart. Sex has been a deep-routed issue for him for a long time. Trouble is, I can't imagine having sex with him now. With the guy I met on the trip, I was having fantasies every other minute .
Is the lack of attraction a barmy reason to break up a relationship? With my passion reignited, I can't imagine spending the rest of my life with someone I'm not attracted to. I can't see how this will change as I do see him now as a friend and nothing more.
Don't get me wrong, he's lovely and kind, but is this enough? I'm not sure it is...
Any thoughts gratefully received - my head is spinning with all these thoughts
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amIoutofmymind · 02/03/2009 23:25
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