I think Im having a really bad week or tonight is the night its all got too much for me. I dont know where to start really. Cant believe Im pouring my heart out on mn.
My fiancee works nights so is never around basically. If he is not at work, then he is sleeping. We have a 6m old baby together who he adores and you can tell she loves him too. I feel so lonely though. Am I being selfish for wanting to spend more time with him? I feel like a single parent most days as he isnt involved in dd daily routine, and she has started to play up at meal times and bedtime when he tries to feed her, or put her to bed and really only lets me do it. I try to involve him as much as possible, but sometimes she gets upset and I end up feeding, etc just to stop her being upset. I want him to do things with her, but he always says Im better at it. I try to explain to him, the reason she is like this is because she doesnt really know him, and he needs to make more of an effort. He didnt like me saying this and walked out to go to work and now Im here pretty upset about things.
The thing is, my life is always going to be like this. His job is on the underground which means all night shifts so I will basically be on my own.... Its upset me a great deal as he informed me tonight that hes working sat night this weekend when I was looking forward to a romantic night in.
Am I being selfish? I know he works hard.
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kentDee · 12/02/2009 23:15
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