New to this but bursting to talk to someone and I don't have anyone to talk to. So here goes my first posting on mumsnet...
DH and I have been going through difficult times for ages now. Things sometimes get a bit better but then in a couple of days it's as bad as ever again or maybe worse.
He hasn't slept in the same bed as me for oh 6 months? We had sex last week for the first time in months and as usual I had to make the move. Does he fancy me anymore? Does he even like me? I have the impression sometimes he doesn't. It's as if I am never good enough and everything I do disappoints him or is yet another point to prove that he is right and I am wrong...
I am studying and working hard on writing my thesis. And he seems to really really resent this. He constantly tells me he doesn't see the point in what I am doing and that he doesn't see how it will help us. But this means a lot to me.
I am not working at the moment as I am trying to finish my studies so he is the one supporting us financially. And I really find that difficult. I cannot wait to be out earning again so that I can be independent.
To be honest I am in the framework at the moment that I want to get the thesis finished and then we will see. I am really beginning to think seriously about life separately from him.
To be honest a lot of the time I wonder what use are men? They just seem to make life SO much more difficult and complicated and expect that they have a little wife at home who should be a 'woman' (his words) and do womanly things... That is not me. I resent being the one who has to do all the cooking and cleaning and should leap up and prepare lunch for him when I appears. And if I don't I get the silent treatment.
We have been together for years and years. 12 years nearly., We have a 2 year old together who is the light of our lives. But it seems that we just communicate about her, and have kind of given up communicating about each other or to each other.
I spend all my time as if on an ice-rink, skating round him and trying not to get him angry.
The latest thing last night was I had washed all the sheets and was busy up to going to bed cleaning the apartment and clearing up. I made up my bed and put the sheets on his bed but did not get round to making it. I was too knackered. That got him really cross and he informed me that I was just making things worse, and driving us further apart. By not making up his fringin' bed????
Do I love him? To be honest I don't know any more. I just know life is very stressful and not very happy with him aroudn and I am beginning to think that it would be a lot easier if we were apart... I don't even want to be with anyone else.
But I am very sad for my beautiful daughter. Because regardless of our relationship or lack of relationship, he is a wonderful father and adores her... Also I get so scared that in the future she might blame me for us splitting up...
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katusha · 16/06/2008 08:08
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