This is my first post here although I have been reading for yonks and I was hoping for some advice.......
Will try to keep this short.....DH & I have moved house recently and we have kept in touch with our neighbours who were all lovely and became firm friends.......One man in particular is very dear to me (he would go out of his way to help us out with practical matters with the house and the kids became very fond of him as well & he is just very kind and generous by nature) and I would send the odd chatty text before we moved but I would also see him a few times a week for a chat. He is a few years younger than me and very handsome - us female neighbours would all sort of swoon over his muscles in a jokey kind of way
Now comes the stupid part. Handsome neighbour had stopped by the old house before we moved to say goodbye as he was going home for a holiday and wouldn't return till after we moved. DH was out and neighbour told me that he would miss us and that we had been such great neighbours etc......he handed me a bottle of wine & I put my hand on his arm and said I had a card for him at which point he took my hand in both of his......I ran to get the card and we said goodbye.
The tricky part came after we moved and I realised how much I was missing this man. I appreciated his good looks before but not in a sexual kind of way IYKWIM? but since we moved I can't stop thinking about him. I still love my DH very much but we have been having a hard time of things settling in to the new house and coping with 3 small children.
I know in my heart of hearts that nothing can ever happen with this man. We have been sending chatty texts (nothing bad just hello how are yous)and I sent him a card after we moved to say how much we would all miss him and keep in touch. I told him how much we appreciated his help. We have been texting now (just chatty) for the past 5 months and whenever Dh & I have been back to the house (not sold yet) we have chatted to neighbour.
Dh knows we text and AFAIK he doesn't read them. DH has female friends of his own which I know he flirts with and both of us agree that flirting with other people kind of feeds the soul & does no harm.
The texts with myself and neighbour got a bit flirty and I was really enjoying the fact that this handsome young man would even reply anyway, I went down to the house for a weekend to myself away from the kids. I popped in to see neighbour & I was so bloody nervous I could hardly speak. My mouth dried up & I could feel myself blushing like mad. I was so embarrassed I practically ran out of there.
I left it till I got home to family and texted to say it was great to see him but that I had been nervous (I was sure he realised something was up he was looking at me like I had 2 heads and I felt I had to explain) and he texted back to ask what he had done to make me nervous. Stupidly I replied that I had been thinking about his naked chest too much and would be back to normal once I stopped. I haven't had a reply since and now I am worried I have wrecked the friendship by being too honest (and stupid) His first language is not english and our conversations have always been a bit stilted anyway but I am kicking myself.
I really care about this man & don't want to lose his friendship.
Should I text him to apologise. Should I stop contacting him altogether even though it is so much fun (usually!)
I'm so confused and feel really really like I have made a prize arse of myself.....
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trying to navigate friendship with male whilst married and made a mess of things......long sorry
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mrsshapelybottom · 28/05/2008 11:32
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