This is a difficult post to write but its something that's affecting our relationship.
I've been with DP for nearly 9 years. In all that time I've only ever given him one blowjob and then I was violently sick and withdrew into myself for a few days. He never asked again but I feel it coming between us and he often hints at wanting me to do it but never asks.
I was sexually abused by a teacher between the ages of 7 and 9 and was too frightend to tell anyone because he threatend to do the same to my sister if I did tell anyone. I don't want to go into detail here about what he did to me as its to upsetting but its left me with a real fear of having anything I can't control in my mouth. I've not been to the dentist for many years either and panic just at the thought.
I want to sort it out and be able go give DP something that happens in normal relationships but I just can't.
Sorry I doubt anyone her can help but needed to get it out
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