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We've been married for just under 10 years, got three DD's, and we are planning a forth DC sometime in the next year or so, that we were really excited about.
I made a coffee for the local bobby, who was ushering traffic through a diversion out the front. As I walked past on the way back from school he started talking to me, and joked about me making him a coffee, and he'd owe me flowers to say thank you, so I did, no big deal? Is it? Jokey text went along the lines of:
Just to let you know I am making coffee for a very nice police man, he says he has a bunch of flowers waiting with my name on them, so I thought we might run away into the sunset!
DH sent back a couple of text's which I didn't reply to because I was sorting DD3 out, so then he sent a message saying "fine, introduce the girls to their new dad, coz I'm not coming home tonight" My first thought was that he was having me on, playing the same game I started, then whilst I was trying to think of a witty reply, I started wondering if he was actually being serious. DH has never said anything like that either jokingly or seriously, and I just got the feeling that he did mean it. When I say mean it, I don't think he really meant for me to do it, or that he wasn't coming home, I mean it certainly seemed like he wasn't finding my joke funny.
So I sent back: Haha, OK game over, gone far enough, you coming home for lunch today?
He rang then and had a huge big go at me, for "eyeing up another bloke" (because I had written 'a nice policeman' apparently this means I want to fuck him? ) and a load of other shit. This isn't at all like DH, I shouted back at him and put the phone down, I wish I hadn't now but I was just so un-prepared for it, I didn't know what else to do.
Anyway he texted/rang a few times, we argued more, but now I feel like he doesn't trust me at all. I have never given him any reason to doubt me. I have been 101% faithful since we first got together nearly 15 years ago. I told him I don't think a forth baby is such a good idea after all.
He says it has never been a question of his trust for me, but he initially tried to turn the joke on me, and it back fired, and now he can see how upset I am over it, he realises this was the wrong thing to do. He want's us to calm down, forget, move on, but I don't think I can.
On one hand I feel very hurt that he doesn't trust me, then I think if he did mean it as a joke and it got out of hand then this is all over nothing. This is all over him supposedly not trusting me, but now I'm not trusting him in taking his "I was joking" at face value.
Am I blowing it up out of all proportion? You'd have thought I'd have been better at reading him by now, but I think because it was over text messages (so lack of facial expressions, tones of voice etc.) and because it is such an odd thing for DH to do, it has thrown me.
Don't really know what replies I am expecting, if any, just needed to get it off my chest.
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I don't know if AIBU is a better place to put this, but I think I have realised this morning that my DH, who I thought loved and trusted me to the ends of the earth and back, actually doesn't. (V. long, sorry)
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theuntrustedone · 28/02/2008 14:25
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