I have been with dp for a long time - we got together when we were both in our early twenties. 18 years later we have two primary school age children.
We have had a hard year - dp has been diagnosed as suffering from depression, we have had some difficult issues with his family, I am looking at a change in career with all the stresses that involves.
I have tried hard to support my dp but keeping things going at home whilst he has essentially had a breakdown has been exhausting. The closeness between us has gone and I don't know why but it shocks me that I don't seem to care either. He has always been a 'half-empty' person but I lately I find his constant cynicism and negativity really draining. I don't feel that he has really dealt wth the issues that are effecting his mental health - I have been trying to get him to see a therapist but he says he is not ready to do this. In the meantime I am the only person that he talks to about how he feels - and I am now unwilling to raise the issue of how he is because I dread the ensuing discussion.
He's a lovely father to the kids and I do love him but I have been increasingly wondering whether I want to stay with him. The passion has completely gone - I can see us in a few years time when the kids are teenagers having nothing to say to each other.
I find it really hard to work out whether we have just grown apart because we have been together such a long time and have changed as people, whether it's the issue of years of raising small children and not taking care of our relationship, or whether it is related to dp's depression.
I can't believe it myself but I have actually been mulling over the practicalities of us separating - how it would work, what it would feel like. I am very unhappy. he knows this but feels unable to change things.
Any advice would be great, from anyone who has been in a similar situation.
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Is this the beginning of the end of my marriage?
ribba · 21/10/2007 12:23
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