ok, i am a regular but changed names for obvious reasons.
get invited to a party at the w/end, she is a good mate, and i had a thing with a member of her family who i know is going to be there. this was 7yrs ago.
this was just b4 i got with my now dh.
me and her family member liked each other for ages, wrote to each other (he was away working) and when he used to come back we would alwys flirt.
things came to a head dec 99 when we saw in ny eve together - kissed, had sex, this carried on for a few weeks before he went back to work.
even though we had been in touch before all this, i didnt write again, guess i didnt know what to say, but knew i loved him. i know he had feelings for me because said friend told me, but its not something we discussed.
in different circumstances (him not working away) mostly i know we would have got it together properly.
so, over the yrs i have thought of him a bit and heard what he was upto through ner, but hadnt seen him. no closure.
see him at the weekend, we are both married with kids, and all the old feelings come rushing back, i cant get this guy out of my head. there were a few 'looks' across the table etc.
now im not stupid enough to do anything about this, but i cant stop thinknig about him.
why?
how do i stop?
my dh even said what a great guy he seemed (he does know about things yrs ago - but not the strength of my feelings for him then) - and my ds was palying with his ds and dh said we should invite them all over sometime - obviously this is not going to happen.
anyone else been here?