Hi Dior,
Like the new title - it shows you're turned a corner I think .
Sorry I wasn't on for some days. My work computer broke down completely on Wednesday and I've spent the whole morning 'rebuilding' it with a nice Scottish guy on the end of the phone. He's probably ugly as heck but he sounded really cute plus I love Scots accents...
It all sounds terribly sad at your work. What is your friend going to do next? I can understand you feeling that work is a family to you, when you've so much difficulty at home and it must be hard to lose someone you felt was a real friend, when you're left with G and the 17 yo gal. Hope the meeting goes well. Quite right not to pursue ANYTHING with G - you show huge insight into why you became fixated on him. He seems to show the typical male response to anything - unable to handle the emotional side of things. After all, he's 'only a bloke' .
I do hope it's not true that most men would shag anyone if they fancied them though - surely some of them are capable of keeping faith? I have to think that, or I wouldn't be able to cope with dp going off on his summer tours. He WAS actually offered one by an actress in his company a few years ago - my hackles rose as soon as he told me over the phone that she'd been moaning about not having had sex for six months, and I thought, she's quite pretty, intelligent and available, not too many years younger than him and he's an attractive guy - I'll bet she'll make a play for him. And sure enough, she actually came on to him one dark night. But he told me he turned her down, saying that he valued us too much . Well, I chose to believe him because he was honest enough to say that he probably would have succumbed if he'd not been in a relationship. I also made a point of being VERY nice to her when we met, as my theory is that it's hard to steal a man from a woman you like!
DP's had more girlfriends than I have had hot dinners - but I'm hoping I'm the last - at any rate, I'm the only one he's really tried living with. He's been away for a week now, and seems very happy, but says he's missing me. That's fine, I'm enjoying my evenings watching old DVDs and pottering about the garden in the rain. And it's nice not worrying about the drinking...