Hi all, I'm new here but a friend talks so highly of you all I thought IDE come and say hi....so hi!!!
Please forgive me know if I seem like a moaner, but I desperately need to get stuff off my chest and I have no one I can talk to. Don't get me wrong, I have so many amazing friends but I struggle to talk
About my feelings as people constantly tell me how great a mum I am and what a fab marriage I have. I don't have the heart to tell them I'm actually a crap mum and unhappy most days.....
But I it's true...I have 3 brilliant little ones. But they are hard work. 2 are at school and the 3rd, who is clingy and strong willed is home with me. Lately I find myself shouting at them all the time. Whilst I'm doing it I feel justified....usually because they are ignoring me or doing the opposite of what I want. I shout they cry...then I cry when they are in bed because I feel so crap. Hubby is no help. He's been diagnosed with stress and depression. I tiptoed around him when he was diagnosed a few months ago, but. Ow I just resent the fact he's so miserable and does fuck all. Today I asked him for help with the house work. I pointed out that I have a home to look after, 3 kids, a job, I'm studying, plus a placement......his response was 'I do the washing up and vacuum when you ask'........I got annoyed and then I'm the bad person!!!
I honestly hate the fact I'm so miserable and tonight, like last night, I'm going to bed saying I'm going to be a better mum tomorrow....but what if I'm not? What if my babies only ever remember mean, grumpy mum!?
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3littlemonkeysx · 22/01/2017 21:54
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