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I've always had an active imagination and suffer from anxiety, when I was younger this was in the form of desperation anxiety but as I've got older it has taken the form of health anxiety, I offer sit and find myself falling into an imagined scenario where I'm dying, diagnosed with something, what my funeral would be like, what letters I'd write etc and I find it hard to pull myself out of these imagined scenarios even though they're upsetting!
Anyway, now in a fairly happy relationship I cannot stop imagining scenarios of him cheating, me finding messages on my phone, coming home unexpectedly and finding him with someone etc, I'll be sitting day dreaming about it, heart pounding, crying sometimes, knowing it's not true but being almost unable to stop myself going through the process of it in my head! I don't know if it's a form of self punishment, or if it's the opposite and it's my mind sort of practicing for something which I would say is worst case scenario (relationship wise) in order to be more prepared for it if it happens.
(He has not to my knowledge ever cheated nor has he given me reason to think he would/will)
Has anyone else had experience of this and if so were you able to manage it yourself? It doesn't impact on my relationship in the sense that i keep it to myself and it doesn't negatively affect how I am with dp but it seems I can't help but let myself indulge in it when the feeling comes :(
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How can I stop my imagination
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freezingcold123 · 21/11/2016 06:47
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