I've name changed for this as I know I'm being ridiculous, and I feel thoroughly embarrassed. I hope someone out there can help or say the right words to force me to get a grip.
DH has been working with a much younger female colleague in an office based job for several months, and I'm finding it an horrendous struggle to deal with feelings of jealousy. DH is 47, the colleague is mid-20s. They share an office with about 9 or 10 other people. They do not sit next to each other in their office, but they work as a 2-person team daily.
This woman has a long term bf, who I believe she intends to marry. She's nuts about him. I feel certain DH wouldn't cheat on me (as certain as anyone can be I suppose). I've never met her, but she's one of DH's FB friends (as is everyone in the office).
I get sick with rage when I see she has 'liked' one of his posts, or makes a comment. Other female workers comment on his posts and it doesn't bother me. Just her. I feel generally resentful of her.
I think the problem is DH has had some serious anger issues over recent years, stress induced most likely. He has been very unfair at times, and said vicious, nasty things to me and our kids when, for example, we've tried to give him a lovely birthday treat. In fact, I went all out for his birthday a few months ago. He through it all back in my face, saying how I organised it all the way I wanted it, and that he'd had no choice as to what he would get to do (not true, I'd checked all the details with him beforehand and he was fine about it all). He went as far as saying he wished he wasn't a part of our family. Extremely hurtful. He's not like this ALL the time, and also, he has apologised for this over and over since the incident. On the other hand, it wasn't a one off incident. Some more serious incidents have occurred during our marriage - on two occasions the incidents involved near violent confrontations with men. He thinks nothing of lashing out at me verbally if he perceives me to be too bossy, controlling, etc. He is always sorry afterwards as he realises he has been unreasonable, but it still hurts.
Anyway, back to the case in hand, the colleague. This colleague is inexperienced in the field they work in, so he has had to train her up, etc, and she's relied upon him heavily for guidance. He has such a high regard for her, I can tell, even by how he says her name, and refers to the two of them as 'XxXxXx and I have discussed xy&z'. I wish he routinely spoke of me with such respect! He seems protective of her too. When I've pointed out that she relies on him too much after months of training, and that he shouldn't feel so responsible for her, he is quick to point out that she's just trying her best. Yet, so many times in our marriage, I feel he's left me hung out to dry in terms of how his dad and sister have treated me (and he's NEVER even gotten along with his sister). Things with DH and I are great at the moment, in terms of our relationship - except for me telling him how irritating I find his co-worker to be. And we both know I'm being unfair to her.
To people outside the family he generally appears to be charming, humourous and gentle. Sometimes, in our marriage, a few women have interpreted his gentle humour as flirtation and responsed too enthusiastically to his humour. He's not recognised that they think he's flirting so he'll keep going with his jokes... until we have a problem. In one case, one woman (a family health care professional btw) thought it appropriate to tell me repeatedly how handsome and fit she found DH. She got more and more obvious with this until I couldn't stand it any longer. I asked DH to put her in her put her right, and he refused, so I had to do it myself.
I guess there's quite a lot of info I'm asking for help with - thank you if you've managed to get through that lot.
I'd be so so so grateful for any comments you can offer, because I feel like I'm going out of my mind with unreasonable jealousy.
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MummyMuppet2x2 · 11/11/2016 14:56
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