I've posted on here in the past.
I am in a relationship ship that I have been in for over three years now.
It has always been rocky and he hasn't always treated me brilliantly.
In march this year I called an end to it was tired of his games his bull and general selfish ways.
After the break up I met someone else unexpectedly completely out of the blue I went on a few dates as I was single and it was harmless. This man treated me like gold he took me out bought me nice things and told me everyday how amazing he thought I was.
I've never had anyone treat me like this and i didn't know what to do with it at the time I acted casually and never discussed the future or feelings.
I felt like I had always known him he was like a best friend to me and someone I felt like I missed my whole life in a crazy way I could tell him anything and be myself and he never judged me.
My ex did not want to let me go and promised to change and did not leave me alone during this time. He promised me the sun and the moon and I ended my new relationship and took me ex back.
He did change and to some degree he is a better partner than he has ever been but the selfishness is still there and he's gone back to never taking me out or buying me anything we live together and he gives me some money but not that much considering what he earns he doesn't split things and I've got children from a previous relationship.
I feel he only changed out of fear of losing me but over the time he's gone back to a lot of his old ways.
We are close and have a good relationship but it's because i put up with a lot more than I should from him for a quiet life. I do love him and it's been a while we have been together now so I'm scared of change.
The other man was gutted when I ended it and I saw him a few wks ago in the supermarket and he spoke to me he was nice and caring asked what I was doing now and then asked me did I think I had made a mistake I said no and he left it at that.
The thing is I miss him so much he was only in my life briefly but during that time he really cared about me and showed me so much love that I have never experienced before with anyone. I know of course he didn't know me long enough to love me but he said I'm mad about you never felt like this before and as far as I know he hasn't been in a relationship since as we have mutual friends.
I dream about him all the time wondering if i made a huge mistake I could tell him anything and three hours with him would pass in five minutes. I am not unrealistic I'm not a teenager and I don't want to walk out on my current relationship for a mad idea that I've got in my mind that I've walked away from the one.
I love my partner but he's very self centred and I always feel I'm last on the list I know he must love me as he went to pieces when we split up but he's so materialistic and money mad and I hate it as I'm not like that at all.
We have arguments about it as he will quibble with me over a few quid that I owe him etc
I keep thinking did I make a huge mistake walking away from the other man.
Everyday I think About it has anyone else been there help
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Did I make a mistake need help with my confusion
confused84 · 23/10/2016 16:13
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