I posted about this a few months ago (can't remember if I name changed).
I broke up with my ex about a year ago as we were long distance and he was dragging his feet about relocating to be with me but it broke my heart to end things.
I haven't been able to move on and I still think about him every day. I honestly believe he's my soulmate and I've found the last year extremely difficult not having contact with him. We kept in touch for about 2 months after the breakup and the last time we spoke was in February when he told me he still loved me but he'd met someone else and wanted to try and make it work with them.
I really wanted to remain friends as the thought of never speaking to him again was too much. I emailed him at the end of August to that effect and received a reply last Thursday (nearly two months later).
He said he'd only just read the email and made it clear he was happy to hear from me, asked lots of questions about how I was doing and mentioned a birthday card I'd sent him whilst we were together and that he still had it.
I replied immediately and he emailed back immediately too. I felt like he was trying to reconnect so I stupidly told him I still love him and I will always love him even though we can't be together.
He didn't reply to this and he obviously was only replying out of politeness --even though deep down I was hoping it was because he still loves me too.
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I know this email has to be the last contact. I know I have to move on but it's such a struggle. I've dated lots since we broke up but none of the guys compare to him. The truth is I don't want anyone else, I want him but I know I need to accept that it will never happen and he no longer loves me.
Has anyone else ever felt like this before and managed to move on and be happy? I honestly believed that after a year I would be over him but my feelings are still as strong as ever. I want this to end, I need to let go but I just don't know how.
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How do I let go?
jaffacakesaremyfave · 23/10/2016 13:21
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