I turned 31 this year. I've been single for 2 years as of a few weeks ago.
I know this sort of thing has been talked about on here before, but I'm so low that I can barely cope anymore. All my friends, bar two, are married, engaged, have children. The two that are single don't really want relationships.
I feel so lonely. I am struggling to talk to my friends about pregnancies and weddings. I don't even have anyone to altend the weddings with, and it's so lonely.
I've had relationships, a couple have been serious. I'm not too picky I don't think. I really think I've just not met the right one and I've been unlucky.
Just after my last relationship ended, I bought a house. I've enjoyed doing it up, but God, it's been lonely. One time I tried to build a table and couldn't lift it when I had screwed on the legs. It sounds funny now looking back, but I cried so much that night. It's not been easy.
I expect most people feel like this, but I have so much love to give. I love being in a relationship. That doesn't mean I'm not ok on my own - I am. But to me, having a loving relationship and a family is the number one for me.
I don't know why I'm posting. I feel scared I suppose. My life is passing me by, and I fill it with all sorts of things I enjoy, but it's not the same alone. I can make myself happy but I don't want to spend the rest of my life alone with that happiness.
I don't think I'm particularly odd or difficult, I enjoy meeting people. Everyone has families or their 'other half.' I felt so awful last week I called in sick for two days.
Literally in the last month I've just thought I can't do this anymore. And people who say make some single friends... I don't want to. I love my friends for who they are. I don't want to have to go to weird clubs or after work sewing classes to meet someone. Why couldn't it just have happened like it did for all my friends? I also date a lot. Just never feel that connection. Maybe I'm meant to be alone.
My life feels so worthless. I'm done with the single life. It was fun. I made the most of it. All I want now is a family.
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Not sure I can cope with my life like this forever, and I'm starting to feel it will never change
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Yellowmilkshake · 04/10/2016 20:05
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