I broke up with my boyfriend of 16 months a few weeks ago. Posted about it on here at the time. Basically he just fell out of love with me. He came round yesterday to finish off some jobs in my house that he'd started ( as we had decided to still be friends) and we ended up having sex. He didn't want to at first as he didn't want to mess me about but I persuaded him that I was fine with just sex.
I'm not. I'm very much in love with him and I'm desperately sad that I can't be what he wants. I know he's on dating sites and the thought of him meeting someone else tears me apart.
My relationship history has been awful. I was with dh for 12 years. He gambled away family money and drank heavily. Doesn't pay maintenance ( self employed and difficult to prove income) leaving me to support 3 dc on my income alone.
I left him and had two short relationships which both ended with the men dumping me and then my recent experience with ex boyfriend.
I just wonder what's wrong with me that I'm so unlovable and I'm sad and stressed. Feeling ropey too as I'm anaemic and low in b12. Just want to sleep.
Had a few dates. They liked me and there is one I'm vaguely interested in, but what's the point?
Please be gentle with me, I know I shouldn't have slept with the ex and I don't need harsh home truths right now. I'm so envious of people with lovely happy marriages.
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Patheticfallacy · 11/09/2016 14:09
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