Hi everybody
I'm struggling at the moment and my friend keeps raving about how amazing you lot are on here, so I thought I'd gather your thinking on something...
At the start of this year, my husband of 1.5 years - together for 11 years - announced he no longer loved me and would be leaving. Although I wasn't in love with him any more, after years of being cheated on and just changing into an older, wiser person, the shock of my marriage ending was incredibly tough.
After 3 or so months of grieving, learning to live alone for the first time in my life (I'm 28), I began dating again. I felt somewhat that I was ready to date even when I first was single, having been unhappy for a few years, but I know now I needed that time to adjust. So I've seen a few men, slept with a few and been dicked over a few times too.
Now, I've found this lovely, lovely man (38) who is a super smart physics teacher, American (I'm an Americaphile), well-suited to me in many ways and (to me) gorgeous. We slept together for the first time last night and was wonderful. He trusted me with some intimate information about himself, which felt really lovely, and we just had a gorgeous night.
Today I'm super happy, but also doing my usual - panicking as soon as a relationship starts to form. We've only had 4 dates so I'm trying not to jump the gun, but I'm just so scarred from 10 years of cheating, lies and having to worry constantly about what my husband was doing (and with whom) that I feel it'll be impossible for me to trust again. I think I may also have some deep-rooted issues from my teenage years, when my mother quite dramatically had an affair.
I'd love to hear any sage words of advice, experience, tips etc. for learning to trust again. I desperately want not to feel paranoid all the time, but already I can feel it - e.g. when he went to the bathroom last night after getting a text, I instantly thought it's from a woman he doesn't want me to know about. How do I train my brain out of these thoughts? I'm already having them now - so how bad will it be 6 months down the line?!!! I know logically I can trust this man (well, in as long as I've known him he hasn't given me a reason to)...
THANK YOU so much in advance! I would really, really love to hear your thoughts x
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HELP! Learning to trust new men after cheating husband
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arizonabelle · 03/09/2016 19:18
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