Feel like a total bitch

[RedGrapeCornSnake]

I've tried to write this a couple of times, I'm not really sure what I want from this thread but I don't have anyone to talk to IRL.

I have a lovely DH who I adore and who adores me. I have no doubts that we are solid. I cannot, and do not want to, imagine life without him.

So why the hell have I developed a ridiculous crush on a co worker?
This guy is nothing like I usually go for, he's too young, too much of a lad and smokes, none of which I find attractive.
But where we work we're very informal, there's lots of banter and general piss taking. It's pretty male dominated and actually fun as far as work goes. I thought I had a normal level of feelings for this guy until he revealed he was job hunting which is when this damn stupid crush started. Now he's handed in his notice and I reckon I've got about 3 more shifts with him before he leaves. I'm actually really upset that he's leaving, can't stop thinking about it/him.

Ultimately I guess this will fade when he goes, which won't be a bad thing, but right now I don't want him to leave. I'm driving myself mad with these stupid teenagery feelings and I'm nearly fucking 40.

I need an almighty kick up the arse don't I?

[babba2014]

It's a crush OP, nothing more. You know that and have said it yourself. Love is something on another level. Way way out of reach of a crush. I bet if you spent time with him for months, like you do with your OH, you'd always pick your OH. There is a bigger picture in life. And your man is a big part of it.

[RedGrapeCornSnake]

Thanks, I know you're right

DH is definitely the only one for me. I might be enjoying the banter/attention/flirting from crush guy but if he actually made a move I would run a fucking mile!

I guess I just need to ride out these stupid feelings.

I just feel a bit better for getting these thoughts out of my head