Is anyone else like this?
Sometimes I feel like I'm going mad. We are both age 42, no children, two dogs.
Ours is a sexless marriage. It wasn't at first - we couldn't get enough of each other - but the last time we had sex was February. The time before that was August 2014. Before that, June 2013. Apart from the self-esteem erosion it causes when your husband doesn't fancy you, I'm not that bothered. It's always over in seconds, it's never good for me. I still have a decent libido though. He doesn't.
He has all the traits of passive-aggressive personality disorder and all the traits of obsessive compulsive personality disorder (OCPD: a different disorder to OCD). Sometimes I could scream, he's such a frustrating man to live with. Of course he doesn't accept he may have any kind of disorder. He is perfect, normal, and is right all the time, and I am unreasonable and emotional.
But he's also great company. We're very comfortable together. We like the same things, laugh together, enjoy each other's company (mostly). We like holidays, eating out, going to the cinema, walking the dogs. He adores our dogs. He brings me flowers home from work. He looked after me when I was ill. He works very hard and he's not a lazy man.
More and more I think, this marriage is no good. It's got no emotional depth; it's superficial; we're just friends sharing a house. He shuts down any conversation about anything meaningful, anything about our relationship, but he will talk endlessly about jobs on the house, his work, himself.
I've decided several times I'm going to leave. But then I miss him when he works away, or we laugh together at something, and I change my mind.
Anyone else going through anything similar?
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FranGoldsmith · 09/08/2016 08:06
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