Trying to keep it brief. We have been married nearly 19 years, usual ups and downs, lots of happy compatibility and also various predictable conflicts over the years over time pressures, money, work, DC upbringing etc. We have two teen DC, one with ASD, We have also learned that DH is on the spectrum which explains some of the communication issues we have had over the years.
DH insisted on planning and setting off on a long-haul worktrip which has lasted nearly 3 weeks. (He is back in a couple of days). The trip looks very much like a junket to me - a conference at the beginning, a few meetings, a few days visiting an old girlfriend (!) and attendance at a public memorial ceremony for an event in which he has professional interest. As you can imagine I have not been thrilled by any of this. It has come at a time when both DC are feeling stressed at school, and my mother who lives an hour's flight away from me is moving to supported accommodation and selling the family home. My current focus is on all the different people who need me.(plus work).
I asked DH 1) not to go at this time and 2) to only go to the conference and the meetings, ie skip the old girlfriend and the memorial ceremony. He insisted that it was all important and I should support his endeavours as he supports mine.
I have been really angry and hurt that he has prioritised this quite pleasant but not life changing trip over my very real need for his support. I am desperate to be able to help my mother. I can do so next week, once DH is back, but just feel so stuck at the moment.
When I speak to DH on the phone, our conversations are stilted and not our normal flow. Whatever he says about what he is doing, I just find myself making nasty passive aggressive remarks, like 'must be nice to have free time' etc. I have been very clear to him that I am hurt and let down that he insisted on this trip and he just says that he will make it up to me when he gets back.
How do I move away from the anger that I feel? I don't want to dismantle our lives and LTB. I just want to be back to us at our best. I also want to know that in a similar situation in the future he would do things differently.
I do not think there is any danger to our relationship from the old girlfriend. I believe him that there is no feeling left there (they broke up 29 years ago) and he barely remembers that they were in a relationship. He feels sorry for her as her life has not been very happy. It has just added to my feeling that my feelings have been put down the list.
I do think he has been massively selfish- how can I get past my resentment? What can I ask him to do so that we can be back on track?
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fastdancer · 18/07/2016 09:43
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