Hello....
I really love this forum and felt the need to send a message in here as I havent spoken to anyone outside of here yet as I feel so bad about my feelings.
I have bought this lovely house with my partner, we are engaged and up until about a month ago, I have what I can only describe as totally gone off him, to the point, we are sleeping in two separate rooms, him in one room and me in the other. I am enjoying my time alone, sleeping, chilling, reading and finding me again which makes me feel like I am now single weirdly.
We use to do everything together, at the weekends we enjoyed what we would get up to, to going away, to skiing to shopping etc, life was good. We are very reserved in the fact it has always been just us together and nobody else. In the week, we both work long hours finishing after 7pm and leaving the house at 7:30am, we have no children, good lifestyle and are keen fitness freaks as well. So life is, or was good...We have only been together just over a year.
We lived together for a good few months before, he lived with me for 6 months and it was great, no problems there and he sold his house before then selling mine to buy this one together, we felt it was the right thing to do....
However, since moving into our new house about 3 months ago, because the move has been so horrific, (it is a new build) we have hated every minute of it. We are now in contact with a solicitor to see what we can do because of the list of issues which havent been resolved at all. The sheer thought of living with my partner now has actually got to the point of me just not fancying him anymore and getting annoyed with him, short with him and just grumpy around him too.
I am wanting to spend more time doing my own things, going to the gym alone, we use to go together, seeing my family without him and everytime he is around me, I feel I just don't fancy him and he irritates me all the time.
You know, he is such a nice guy, mum thinks he is too passive for me and just there around me all the time, as he literally does a lot for me in the house and now I find it annoying. We have decided we now want out the house we live in as it has got to the stage of hating living here and I am pretty much stressed and feeling anxious everyday and at times just want to run away. I feel pretty much homeless, I hate the house this much and I am feeling numb whenever I feel I have to go home and live with my partner in this house.
I have now come to the conclusion I am not sure if its him and the house or just the house, but I literally don't want him anywhere near me physically which is really weird. We lived together for 6 months before, he was living with me, he sold his house and we were fine, then as it was a good time to sell, we bought a house together and it felt right! My brother pretty much moved into his partner's house a year later and they are as strong as ever like we use to be?
We use to have fun, sex was a strange issue at the start as we werent quite in sync together and took about 4 months to resolve, we are ok now but my sex drive has pretty much plummeted and is non existent. There was a lot of talking, understanding and reasoning at the start to get to understand what that was all about, he use to take a while to climax. He has since been better but takes a few days for him to relax or be able to be in sync, if that makes sense, its taken months to get here.
Has the house really changed me or did I kid myself that I was really in love with my partner, as I wouldnt have got engaged if I didnt think he was right, I was so in love with him, we never really argued - can feelings change so much in such a short space of time, a month??
We use to break up, well we broke up twice over sex at the start of our relationship because, we werent being honest with one another, he had a high sex drive, I felt intimated by him and he suggested things, I wasn't too sure of, we spoke over time but always had a solution for it and worked on it, now its pretty much off the radar but something has triggered me to feel this way??
definitely not PMT lol, as its been going on a month now, separate bedrooms seems to be what is bothering me the most and making him worse, any suggestions or thoughts please would be great, as I am not sure on who I am anymore. I feel I have let myself down, him and everyone else too!
I work for myself, love my job, friends, studying beauty and have a lovely family, I suffer now from anxiety over this and it can get to the stage where at times I hate being at home. I havent suffered this for 20 years, (stress/anxiety that is) I am now in my early forties!
thank you.xx
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Moved house, suffering from anxiety and don't fancy partner anymore??
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littleme2675 · 13/07/2016 12:33
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