I'm 55 and my boyfriend of 10months is 50. We have had a wonderful time. I go to his every weekend. He mainly cooks for me and then bike ride on a Sunday. We have been away 5 times, the latest last weekend to France. It was wonderful. He jokes a lot and we haven't had a conversation to 'define' out relationship however lately he has been jokingly saying when are we going to marry my love, in France he mentioned/joked a couple of times about buying our wedding rings. He said his friend wants to know when we are getting married. As it's said in jest I laugh it off. He has showered me with gifts including a car! He has been very hurt in the past and at the beginning of our relationship just to quip about me leaving him or when we parted comments which I let go over my head. He is caring and attentive I even feel he actually loves me. He texts me every day first thing, numerous time in between and goodnight. He refers to his house has our house, his car as our car. In France he was just the same. He said I was like a breath of fresh air to him as he was surrounded by synical people. So imagine my shock when after saying a warm goodbye Sunday afternoon he was on line on plenty of fish (where we met). During our 10 months together he has popped on their every 9 weeks or so. Someone I know with my permission emailed him and asked him what he was doing on POF he said he had been 'busy' but wasn't too sure bit bored!....he told her he wasn't looking for anything really on site and wasn't looking for a replacement. He said he didn't bother responding to messages and that she was the only one he replied to as they have emailed before online. I came to check on him originally as I was going on line to take my profile down this would have been last November and I noticed he was on line so since then I have checked from time to time. The thing this is obviously what he has said but also he went on there 3 evenings since Sunday. He texts me goodnight and goes on line for about 20 minutes. As he's working from home today (Friday) he was up later last night. Said goodnight to me at 9.30 but went on line for about another hour. My friend emailed him whilst he was online but he didn't respond this time. ....Sorry to waffle on but I feel physically sick and could do with some unbias advice. If I hadn't have checked him on line everything would be exactly the same there's no change in the way he is with me. I go this his every Saturday since August so I'm hoping to go this Saturday as usual. Should I confront him? Is he insecure about me? If he is bored with me he certainly wasn't up to Sunday early evening. Is he trying to 'fish' about how I feel about him? I am a very closed person I show him with actions how I feel about him wouldn't he pick up from this how serious I am about him? I'm worried he wont invite me over this weekend I have such a feeling of dread and if he does should I have the relationship conversation. Just cant be feeling like this.
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I think you shouldn't go this weekend.
Firstly you've spent every weekend with him since last August?? Sp basically since the beginning? Seriously - why? Waaaaay too much. You're not an old married couple!
Ditto the constant texts. Not neccessary AT ALL.
You do need to develop a life beyond him. He's too much of a risky bet. Get some breathing space.
Oh and should you confront him a) he'll joke it away and b) leave you feeling like one of the dreaded "cynical" ones. 
I'd just text and say "Hi, I've loads of stuff to do this weekend so am planning to just stay at mine and get over the holiday." Or similar. Just get some space!
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