I have had self-confidence/self-esteem issues as long as I can remember, which are undoubtedly playing a part here, but does anyone else worry that their relationship just won't last - but based on not one single real concern at all?
I have a lovely boyfriend who seems intent on loving me loads, despite my weirdness, but I just can't stop myself fretting that he'll "realise" what a horror I am; or "see through" me. Or that he'll just decide it's not worth it and bog off. Again, this is based on nothing but my own issues of feeling unlovable and hating myself much of the time.
I watched that marriage mediation documentary yesterday (bad idea) and now I keep having thoughts of - what if that's us?
It's not a pleasant way to live and I find myself "testing" him all too often. Luckily he knows this and lets me melt down until I am able to run to him for cuddles and reassurance, which he gives willingly and fulsomely (any earlier and it just won't help - told you I was weird!)
Please tell me I'm not alone in my oddity!
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DontDead0penlnside · 23/06/2016 08:52
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