Hi, DH and I have been having counselling for a while due to relationship problems, largely caused by his utterly emotionless attitude to sex. We have what we both describe as an 80%/20% relationship. 80% of it has been great - we are great at parenting together, we have been excellent friends, we get on very very well. But the 20% (sex) has been a disaster - he has basically spent the past 16 years treating me like a piece of meat, and I have put up with it, because he had no understanding whatsoever of what the problem was, and so I had to choose to put up with it or leave.
Through counselling, DH is beginning now to have some understanding of this. He has realised he is a sex addict - he has had a huge addiction to porn and has an addiction to being aroused as though it is a 'high'. He is devastated by this realisation (he had no idea he wasn't 'normal') and is appalled at the damage he has done to us. He would do anything to save us, to learn how to make love - as opposed to screw - someone.
But I am also devastated. I think I coped for many years by denying to myself it was happening (I did this so as to survive). I am so so hurt by what he has done and I feel I can never never let him anywhere near me ever again. This is not like any other addiction - it has implicated me and destroyed something in me as well as something in him, and I feel like I can never ever be attracted to him ever again.
And I am so so sad, because he has been my best friend and we have four children and I cannot see a way forward for the marriage under these circumstances.
Is there anyone out there whose relationship survived sex addiction?
Thank you
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Living with a sex addict
Maggy1116 · 22/06/2016 19:56
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