So I'm awake it's 1:41am and today has been just plain hell for me.
I wish I never did what I did but it's done now and I don't know where to go from here.
Basically I stumbled across a website and found my husband using it ie his email address and the same old password he uses.
It's a dating site a gay/bisexual dating website. I don't know what to do! So I joined up and messaged him. I can't confront him as I have no proof and also he will turn the tables on me saying that I'm in the wrong for doing what I did.
But I stumbled acrossed it typed his email address in and password and it logged me in. I seen some of the messages he has sent to men asking to hook up.
I don't know if he has or not,
I don't know what to do I feel like my whole world is falling apart. I have been faithful to him and stuck by him threw everything all the plop he has put me threw all the heart ache and this is what I get in return!
Why can he just be truthful to me. Instead of lies it is always lies lies lies lies! I am no stuck here thinking what can I do? Where do I go from here. Do I tell him? Or should I wait till I can try and catch him then he doesn't have a leg to stand on!
I love this man but I don't think I can be with him not now, not after this. We have three children which I take care of as well as him and his family. I feel like a right idiot a fool a doormat.
All I ever did was love that man. Now I don't know who he is he says he loves me, but love isn't that is it? Love isn't the lying and the cheating is it?
I wish I knew what to do apart of me wants to confront him but another part of me wants to know where this leads try and catch him out so I don't look like the bad guy in this.
As he will make me out to be the bad guy in this he can always with out doubt turn the tables and say it's my fault.
My fault that I never gave him enough sex
I am up every morning with the kids 4:30 till 10pm every day I am shattered and nights like this one j am up with the baby.
So excuse me for being over tired to even give you sex or even think about it.
I am so hurt and betrayed! Why do people play with other people's hearts and emotions like this? I thought he was a lovely caring man. Now I don't know who he is. I don't even believe him when he says he loves me anymore.
I feel so sad and mixed of emotions. Apart of my is screaming HAVE IT OUT WITH HIM!!!!! but the other part of me is saying bide your time get the proof and then have it out with him as he is all about the proof.
sighs men are right jerks!
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Brokensoul16 · 08/06/2016 01:52
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