Im in my late 30's and am struggling with an anxiety disorder at the moment possibly brought on my a really eventful year. going from part time to full time work, marital problems, controlling behaviour, house sale, buying a house and divorce. I am still learning to cope with a change in family life and have two children who live with me full time and have found myself struggling with organisation. i used to keep on top of my washing, do a weekly food shop and make home cooked meals but lately i find myself avoiding things like this, i dread taking my children to activities but once i set off i am ok (they never miss) i feel very overwhelmed with just the basics and from the outside i feel like i look lazy.
My parents have been amazing and really help me with my children but i feel like they dont understand my anxiety disorder and sometime make it worse without meaning to. my mum tells me that she stays up late doing jobs in order to get organised and that she is stressed too but just gets on with it, i feel judged and useless and when i try to bring it up with her i get a guilt trip about how much she helps me which believe me i know!.
she tells me what to do alot regarding my children and questions normal decisions i make like not sending my children to a party as we had already made arrangements, and if i decide to keep my children off an activity because we want to spend time as a family she is dissapointed in me.she makes me feel guilty and i still feel like a child around her and resort to shouting and screaming when i feel attacked. she tells me she wants me to be the best i can be but to me i feel like i am doing the best i can do and its not good enough, she tells me she wants the best for my children but it makes me feel like she thinks i dont.
I have told her i am not her and as much as i would love to live up to her standards i cant especially at the minute.
i have tried to talk about this but it gets me nowhere, can anyone advise what i should say to her? how to get taken seriously without being made to feel ungrateful!
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anxiousann123 · 28/04/2016 10:58
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