Hi there
Before I post I'm really wanting to hear from ladies who have been through something like this or know someone who has. One of the reasons I'm on here is because my lovely supportive friends have not had experience of this (yet) and it is very easy to say "leave him" based on your own morals. I need to hear from people who have come out of the other side and either finished the relationship or worked to repair it as I do not know which way to turn at the moment.
Been with DP for 18 years and married for 11. There have been ups and downs - mainly money related but we are now in what I thought was living the dream. A beautiful house, lots of friends and most importantly two beautiful children, the latest of which was born 5 months ago. He always wanted to be a father. I had waited longer than he would have liked and when I fell pregnant with no1 you'd never seen a happier man.
Then last year we were blessed with no2 (planned just happened much sooner than we were expecting) and for some reason since their birth he has turned into the sort of man I thought he despised.
The first shock I got was when I opened an email on a googlemail account registered to both of our phones to support a shared calendar. He was away for two nights with work. The email was in response to a response he had made to a classified advert on a well known site. The lady (although I don't think the ad was genuine) in question had advertised for no strings attached sex (not an escort - a bored housewife type). He had responded basically saying he was interested. After some digging around his email account on my part it became clear he'd tried to change the settings on the gmail account the night before so it would only be seen by him but the idiot evidently failed. I am confident he hadn't tried this before.
After a week of me not even being able to look at him we eventually sat down to talk about it. He told me that since the birth of the baby he'd felt like a spare part. Banished to the spare room (so he could get more sleep I might add), no cuddles on the sofa, holding hands, being treated like a housemaid. He just wanted affirmation that someone might respond - the thrill of knowing he could still be "wanted" in this way. He promised me he would not have gone through with anything. (After more digging I realised the post was in a town with the same name in the US so even if this person had been real which I suspect she wasn't he couldn't have gone through with it even if he'd intended to). I have read that a lot of men after the birth of a baby do feel this way. It isn't right and is very bad behaviour but I started to believe this was the sole reason for this stupid act and that his promises of never doing it again, hating himself for even sending a message and not being able to actually do anything were worth trying to improve the relationship and work though this blip. I thought things were improving and he was certainly making an effort - or so I thought.
In the meantime I was stressing about money, going back to work and general finances as despite him earning a pretty decent wage and, according to my calculations having at least £1K a month do do what he wanted with his account was £1K overdrawn. I told him I wanted to go through his account. He's been shit with money before and I was worried he was spending money on something he shouldn't be. Prostitutes perhaps if he was still feeling lonely?
I was told I was being stupid. Unreasonable, irrational - it had just been an expensive few months.
On Monday I brought myself to tell him now was the time to have a look and see what was going wrong. He willingly provided me with his bank account on line. As I looked through the previous statements I realised there was repeatedly payments to iTunes going out at about £20-£30 a time. I asked him what he had been doing on iTunes. He told me he had a Star Wars game and you can buy extra packages for it and he'd been enjoying it and admitted he had bought a few extras.
I calmly added up all of these amounts which started in December and the cost came to the grand total of £800!!!!!
I showed him and he was utterly shocked. He told me he'd been "bored" - again feeling like a spare part and he had enjoyed the game. Meanwhile I'd been having sleepless nights thinking about money and just having a cup of tea if going out for lunch as my account was nearly in its overdraft and I didn't want to ask him for any money.
I'm furious, hurt, disappointed and totally aghast at his behaviour. I have no way right now of knowing how I'll move past it. I told him yesterday that it is like having three children and I need to concentrate on the two children we have. My head is full of him and his stupid disrespectful behaviour when I should be concentrating on them. I told him that when I'm back at work we need to put the house on the market and go our separate ways. He was devastated and said he’d do anything for that not to happen. He told me he knows he’s been an absolute shit and he is so very sorry but I’m too angry to hear that right now.
My mother once told me that a marriage takes work. One person can hurt the other, make bad decisions and you will often not agree on things but people give up far too easily these days.
He is (was) a lovely guy. Likeable, kind, funny and an amazing father but he is just being such a shit husband at the moment. I know £700 isn't a lot of money to spend in the space of 5 months for some people but it is the principal of him not realising he was doing it and it is, at the end of the day, an f-ing computer game!
Either of these two incidents on their own I could have probably worked past eventually but the two together and the fact they have both coincided with the birth of the second baby - it almost seems like he's trying to escape his life of middle of the road family man.
By the way no one tell me he needs a hobby - he has one that he loves and I resent that too as I'm actually the one who is feeling lonely and disrespected right now with nothing in my life other than my children and friends which actually, I was pretty content with until this week.
There - I've laid it all out on a plate. I am just hoping that there is someone out there who can relate to what is going on right now and can either tell me that they left, moved on and are glad that they did or that they worked at it and their DP did change back into the man he had once been.
I desperately want my children to grow up in the same house as their father and I want us to have the relationship we have had for 17 years. But I am worried that this is it now. This is who he is and he has lost all respect for me and will just keep hurting me like this if I decide to work through it.
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Anyone else's DP turned into a prize dick since birth of baby? Anyone worked through it ok?
speckymum · 13/04/2016 11:15
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